nas

2007-12-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

hmm i think i am addicted to Tom Yam Soup.
awesome.

well i think i have totally wasted the whole of november
in terms of studying
i have done absolutely nothing
its so shocking that school reopens in 3 weeks
it only hit me when naz told me
3 weeks??
and i havent even touched Economics.
oh crap.
i cannot believe i am taking A Levels next year
am i for real?
im so not ready!
i needa study.

went to the library with aidil today
bumped into fairuz and jing yi
sitting in front of aidil in the library
was a future math genius
this little bespectacled boy doing his math assessment book
no doubt promptly asked by his kiasu parents
while his sister was powering her way through mandarin
if only my own sister can do that with her mandarin studies..
tu lah. pandai pandai sangat nak belajar bahasa cina.

my brain felt so rusty today
i could almost hear the gears cringing
cant even do simple math questions
i am screwed i tell you.

tmrw. i will bulldoze my way through math
and then i'll quickly start on geography
read on duchess of malfi
and reread Brave New World
and God help me with Economics

i need As!
and i dont mean Aidil. (:
that i already have. hehe

we're always competing each other on MSN

and that's how i cheat in Tic Tac Toe. =D

2007-12-05T10:36:00.000+08:00

just came back from sleeping over at my sister's place
sorry for not updating regularly
i wanna update about elisha's birthday party

i felt like i was in an episode of MTV's Sweet Sixteen
everyone was dressed to the nines
me, haziqah, falina and begum met up
went to beg's house to change
i ended up ironing falina's and haziqah's clothes
omg. begum's little brother is cute
haha despite the fact that he's 15 years
and he's musically inclined
so the talented!
so after we were all dressed
and haziqah was trying to familiarise herself with her 'high' heels
we had to look for a taxi
not very easy
but in the end we managed to

so we all shared the cabfare
and of course
the first ones to arrive
we ended up exploring the museum a bit
and sat down on the 2nd floor and just talked

so finally the rest of the class arrived
and we entered the Glass Hall
the place was so nicely decorated
with laces and butterflies
and on every table was a bowl filled with cadburry chocolate
so of course we finished the bowl pretty fast
then the programme finally started
and elisha entered with her brother in her arms
oh gosh she was so beautiful!
her gown was such a pretty green colour
apparently she rented it at a wedding shop. haha
and she started dancing with thee guys
first her dad
then her boyfriend. so romantic!
((:

the food was amazing
pineapple rice
and breaded shrimp
and sweet&sour fish
and chocolate cake! yummmms

but then i had to leave early all thanks to her
felt so bad for leaving early
and i missed the dancing too. *sigh*

i told you elisha was gorgeous

the class picnic was GREAT
even if nothing went as planned
me, haziqah, begum and halima got lost
and even feared for ourlives
because the thunderstorm was so strong
it was scary
in the end we seek shelter at a place called Mr Prata
and i ordered indian rojak for everyone
yum yum!
so we finally met up with the rest of the class
at esplanade
and munched through all the food that we made
i made pizzas for everyone
and yes. it was edible. no one died after eating my pizzas thanks.

so after some went home
the rest of us stayed on to play truth or double dare
needless to say
things got real interesting
and then they dragged aidil to play along
when he was just suppose to pick me up
poor thing! haha
but we all had a good laugh about it
((:

so yes
i've only been out twice this month
but i had to be crucified for that
and all because of your inapt mental capability
of thinking logically
what is wrong with you?
nobody is perfect
or rather
nobody can ever reach your expectations
i want to live my own life
not by your values. but mine.
why is it that i always have to compromise for you?
when have you ever compromise yourself for me?
will it KILL you just to speak nicely to me?
when will it get into your head that i have feelings too
im not some punching bag for you to vent your frustrations on
just because you didnt go through what we are going through
doesnt give you the right to decide
not to be understanding
and you tell me i dont want to communicate??
and you say i dont care about anything but myself?
are you bloody kidding me??

congratulations dear Mother
you have successfully stripped me of my happiness
i never knew you had it in you to actually do such things
or say such things
they say emotional scars run deeper than physical scars
if you have the excuse of not having been trained to be a Mother
well guess what. i havent been trained to be your daughter
so we're both in the same boat
im willing to compromise. make sacrifices. for you.
but would you do the same thing for me?
i think not.
you've never encouraged me in ANYTHING
all my interests. anything that makes me happy
not a shroud of encouragement from my Mother.

im so lucky i have Dad with me
and my friends
and Aidil.

thanks for being there for me yesterday
thanks for wiping my tears away
thanks for hugging me till i felt better
thanks for everything
ily.

2007-12-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

no matter what you say about love
i keep coming back for more
keep my hand in the fire
sooner or later
i get what i'm asking for

no matter what you say about life
i learn every time i bleed
the truth is a stranger
soul is in danger
i gotta let my spirit be free

to admit that i'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but i have to move on and leave you behind

i cant waste time so give it a moment
i realised nothing's broken
no need to worry bout' everything i've done
lived every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
i loved you once needed protection
you're still a part of everything i do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
i'll always have you (i'll always have you)

i'm sick of playing all of these games
it's not about taking sides
when i looked in the mirror didn't deliver
it hurt enough to think that i could stop
admit that i'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but i gotta be strong and leave you behind

i cant waste time so give it a moment
i realised nothing's broken
no need to worry bout' everything i've done
lived every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
i loved you once needed protection
you're still a part of everything i do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
i'll always have you (i'll always have you)

if i live every moment
won't change any moment
still a part of me in you
i will never regret you
still the memory of you
marks everything i do

i cant waste time so give it a moment
i realised nothing's broken
no need to worry bout' everything i've done
lived every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
i loved you once needed protection
you're still a part of everything i do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo

i cant waste time so give it a moment
i realised nothing's broken
no need to worry bout' everything i've done
lived every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
i loved you once needed protection
you're still a part of everything i do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
i'll always have you

currently the song that is stuck in my head now
i like the song
i just hate and completely despise the meaning of it
how can you leave someone behind
and yet claim you still have them?
its so selfish
what is the other person suppose to do about it?
you're still a part of everything i do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
i'll always have you
and yet you leave the person
and can't waste time on them?
does that not sound selfish??
apparently this is exactly what's happening with someone i know
which is why i'm disgusted.
too bad i kinda like the song. -.-

on another note

a strangled smile fell from your face
it kills me that i hurt you this way
the worst part is that i didn't even know
now there's a million reasons for you to go
but if you could find a reason to stay

i'll do whatever it takes
to turn this around
i know what's at stake
i know that i've let you down
and if you give me a chance
believe that i can change
i'll keep us together
whatever it takes

i'm so sorry for the past few days
=/

2007-11-27T09:16:00.000+08:00

im so tired from crying
or tearing up
i wish i could say my tears were happy ones
but they're far from it

all good intentions go wrong
words are misunderstood
people get hurt

others assume and anger takes place
while there i am trying my best
but no one seems to notice
and my fears come true

and i start feeling horrible
the most selfish monster on the face of this earth
and then i start feeling frustrated
because i never wanted any of this
and i dont believe i am such a person
but people seem to think so

this year was a great year for me
at the very least i was happy most of the time
but ever since school holidays started
ive been feeling miserable
hopeless
terrible.

came close to a nervous breakdown
so stressed from all the pressures from all aspects of my life
i wish they could cut me some slack

but mr. abdullah says i need to be strong
and so i shall
i'll try. but i need help

im tired of pretending nothing's wrong
tired of pretending everything's okay
im praying it will be soon

as usual. woke up feeling depressed
so i decided to revisit an old therapy
went xanga and started reading quotes.
inspirational quotes got me through so much
breakups
makeups
friendship tussles
mom fightings..
im sure they'll get me through this one too

just some that caught my eye

&don't we all hope for a boy, who,
as we smooth our hair & tug at our clothes,
will grab our hands, smile, & ask us,
"now, what the heck are you trying to fix, beautiful?"

Let's run away to a place where
the air tastes like rain and
the sun shines like Sunday morning.
You bring your laugh and
I'll bring my sense of humor,
and we can taste the days,
one week after another

i miss you so much.
):

2007-11-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

pahang was such an experience
but i have to say
visiting the orang asli there
it was so hard to leave
you wanna stay and do so much more
help them
especially the children
i have such a burning desire
to make a change
any change, even a small one
to their lives
they deserve to be happy
i miss seni.

such a fulfilling visit.
i wanna go there again please.

somewhere i dont wanna go again would be kenong rimba park
the trek was such a nightmare

special mention to some people:
nadia- thanks for keeping me warm. im so grateful
zhe ying- thanks for your concern darling (:
khairin- thanks for getting rid of the leech for me. really.
ilham,ivan,yan ling- thanks for taking care of me while i was at the hotel! you guys are great
mr ng,mr lim,veron,ian,mojo- thanks so the very much. ((:
of course
atiq,aidil,muz- thanks for helping me k? and for all your concern. means a lot (=

having great roomies does wonders to a trip

and so does having your friends around

best friends before the trip
bestIER friends after.

as always. made me realise just how much i do. i really do. (:

yesterday was the touch tournament
kinda disappointing. on my part at least. ah well
cant keep fretting about it
i have to change from a fat slow poke
to a fit hot rugger eh? (:
haha i reckon i need all the help i can get.

thanks for coming down to support!!
appreciate it much much.
though i know muz has a whole different motive for being down there.
haha ((:

darling atiq

my personal cheerleader in black! (:
(okay he's not the one wearing specs)

im gonna miss you like nuts naz!
come back from KL quick please! =/

its all different now.
its tougher now.
i hate that it's happened
but it has
and now we'll just have to deal with it.
if we're gonna make it
i need you by my side
for always.

2007-11-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

swiss raya outing was immediately after innovian outing
so i was pretty tired out to begin with.
but nonetheless
was superbly excited about it
as usual. my house is always the first.
so naz came over earlier to do up her hair
and also pass me her baju kurong
very little people came though
was quite disappointing.
hariz, hazwani, sakinah, sahmadi.. so many couldnt make it.
including the 3 gundus yan, fairuz and taufik. -.-
those who were there..
me, naz, ezah
fahmi, afiq, hilmi
erlinna, zulaikha
fairuzana and syazrul. oh yes. adi! (zulaikha's boyfie)

mom made them do the formal thing again.

after mine was fahmi's
i didnt know he moved to yishun
his baby sister so cute lah
too bad she wasnt at home
would've loved to see her.

after that i think it was syaz's house next
so that he could change
maybe he didnt get the memo
but the dress code was suppose to be traditional
want to act mat salleh lah tu.
haha

in the train

i still think i have pretty friends. (:

poor erlinna got sick during the outing
made somebody very concerned. *cough*
meds didnt work
in the end she had to leave early
what a bummer!

ezah's home

my 1st girlfriends. still. forever. (:

after ezah's house
we went to naz's,
then headed to hilmi's home
i always liked his house
so ulu. and very nice.
his parents are really nice!
mom gave us SATAY!! oh gosh. so nice. haha

then our last house was fairuzana's
we arrived at her house at.. 11 plus.
her mom made roti boyan
so sedap can?
haha but it was past midnight. and everyone was sleepy
and i was getting tired.

darling was at jurong too.
so decided to go home with him
fahmi so nice. accompanied me to the mrt
and cabbed home with aidil.
was super super tired when i got home!

speaking of which
went to boon keng ystd to support IJC soccer team!
i have to say. i like seeing aidil play. (:

then we went to vivo to eat.
windowshopped for a while
so many clothes. so little money. *sigh*
haha
bumped into melissa and company over there
even kak bella and siraj. -.-
so after all the walking
i wanted ice cream
so we made our way to where else
but Ben & Jerry! *clap clap*
i had a cookie cookie sundae
think i had sugar overload. or chocolate for that matter
but doesnt matter. i'll jog later. (:
decided to watch a movie
BEE Movie.
surprisingly good! hilarious!
haha jerry seinfeld's a genius i tell ya.

a nice day well spent. ((:

terima kasih orang chua chu kang!! =D

thanks a gazillion naz (:

2007-11-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

hari raya with the innovians was a blast!
though we should have started earlier
of course
i was late
felt like such a jerk for making everyone wait for me
apologised profusely when i arrived. so sorry!

so we started out with atiqah's house

they occupied their time while waiting for me
by taking pictures!
i have such pretty friends don't i? (:

the white-ys of the day

rusee and nadia

the only brave souls who dared joined 9 girls out for raya
(including darling of course(: )

atiqah's mom cooked mee goreng for us. and i helped serve! =D
she baked really nice cookies too
and that conclude's atiq's house.

next. aidil's house! ((:

i was feeling so nervous on the way there
was praying that i wouldn't look stupid
or spill any drinks or say anything inappropriate

turns out..
his parents are really nice people!! ((:
aidil has a very pretty mom
and a very macho looking dad. haha

and a really pretty house (:

next we head down to Cikgu Tetty's house
we met cikgu's daughter there
omg. she looks just like her
same chubby cheeks and round eyes
so the cute.

my adorable/sometimes you hate her/cant help but love her malay teacher

i think only at cikgu's house did everyone really settled down
and got comfortable
cause that's when people like begum, fairuz, rusydia and of course, me
get crazeee =D

this is just the starting for begum

oh cikgu has a swing set outside her house
and we took so many pictures there
everyone was like a little kid
tsk tsk. only i remained the mature one (right)

2+2-1+1=4! (:

white ranger begum?

aah. a dancer?

and so i decided to join in the fun

while the girls were have so much fun with the swing...

the boys decided to sit it out.

i couldnt believe that small little couch could fit all of us
and cikgu simple flew and settled herself
right smack in the middle
we didnt know she was so agile. haha

so after cikgu's house. we walked to Muz's house next
which he promised was very near
turns out. far lah! -.-

muz's mom cooked for us too. very nice!
i realised i was eating a lot
so far every house made something for us
but we had to be polite
so everyone started to eat
while muz studied for his madrasah exam
so poor thing.

after we left (and muz headed for his exam)
it was MY HOUSE. nyehehe

so we took a train there.

in the lrt.

im sorry but i think i have a really handsome boyfriend. (:

sorry fairuz. i just had to post this up. hehe

my house!!
my mom had a little surprise for my friends
personalised cupcakes! yummy. (:

and my mom cooked chicken curry as well

i think begum was still high from all that eating

so the formal. haha (:

after my house was fairuz's house
and then it was nadia's
her mom made a really really nice pizza
if only i wasnt so full
i would've taken more. hehe

last minute pictures!

hari raya with my classmates was so much fun
we laughed a lot
and everyone goofed around
i cant believe some are leaving
im gonna miss them so much =/

love you atiqah!
dont forget us k? ((:

2007-11-10T13:34:00.000+08:00

i miss IJ117
i miss haziqah hounding me for work
i miss aisyah j. making fun of me
i miss jo's sexy jokes
i miss marissa's blurness

PW wouldn't be as fun if it weren't for them.
OP was a success i think
despite aidil being there
(making me extra nervous but comforted at the same time)
despite the fact that i said eye candies. omg.
haha
everyone simply exploded after OP
we all got so high
took so much pictures

(credits to Atiq)

we finally finished out INCA banner ystd
i grabbed pictures from Mel's blog
i love it. i think it looks fabulous. ((:

will update about raya soon!

i don't wanna lose you too.

2007-11-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

Yvain:
you know when i said i knew little about love?
that wasn't true. i know a lot about love.
i've seen it. centuries and centuries of it.
and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable.
all those wars. pain. and lies...
it made me want to turn away and never look down again.
but when i see the way that mankind loves...
you could search to the furthest reaches of the universe
and never find anything more beautiful.
so yes. i know that love is unconditional.
but i also know it can be unpredictable,
unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable
and strangely easy to mistake for loathing and...
what i'm trying to say, Tristan is,
i think i love you.
is this love Tristan?
i never imagined i'd know it for myself.
my heart... it feels like my chest can barely contain it.
like its trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore.
it belongs to you.
and if you wanted it, i'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits
no goods. no demonstrations of devotion.
nothing but knowing you loved me too.
just your heart, in exchange for mine.

i love this scene.

2007-10-30T00:11:00.000+08:00

'Atiq(: says:
Anyway
'Atiq(: says:
Check out my reply at your comment!
'Atiq(: says:
HAHAHA
nas` says:
hahaah! nak tak? then we can really become power rangers. she pink. i yellow. you white. aidil red. muz blue. or i think he'll fight for pink with her.
nas` says:
then maybe sumpahan maut green. =D
'Atiq(: says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH OMG SO FUNNY
'Atiq(: says:
LOL

Pahang anyone? (:

sumpahan maut joke so mean lah
i didnt start it
but wanna apologise to the person
even though you dont know who you are
hehe. harmless joke. no intentions though
we dont mean it ((:

i cant wait to bake cookies and macroon and what not
with naz and ezah tmrw!
been so long since we spent time together
*beams*

had dinner with Aidil, Atiq, Zai and Muz after school just now
im so so so so sorry for making you guys wait so long
omg. i didnt know you guys were waiting for me before you had dinner
felt so bad
haha but thanks! so fun eating at banquet with them (:

oh yeah
MT paper is over
i thought it was okay
though i think i could have done better
if i wasn't freezing to death
never felt so miserably cold before
was quite alarming to see Aisyah J's lips turned blue
panicked for a while

OP's up next.
(:

2007-10-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

INCA!
i think orientation is gonna be superbly fun
i have all my buddies in the same empire
and we have Rusy as the Empress *clap clap*
muz muz.. -.-
aidil's my partner! hehe
gonna be so fun. i cant wait.

results is this coming Friday
im feeling anxious and super sad
(Ezah darling. how can i forget you?
dont say such things okay.
Me and Naz will always love you no matter what *hugs)

'A' Level MT paper is on Monday
i dont think i can do well.
Oral will probably pull me down
i must have failed it.
and i think i lost my entry proof
sheesh

Oral Presentation on Wednesday
wonder who'll be my audience
i love our project
i think its really cool
i just hope i got my speech right
and answer properly during Q&A
i dont wanna sound like some stuttering idiot.

i kinda miss PW meetings. =/

Friday was the last official day of school
pretty sad about it
so many people are leaving
i hope the class can stick together
(or at least those that matter)

i love 0741C!

on a random note
we achieved 3rd for basketball! hehe

went to Afiq's open house today
with Aidil, Rusy, Rusee, Fairuz, Muz and Farhan

Afiq's little sister is so cute can?
after the open house the rest of us went to 2 of Rusee's aunt's place
i was super tired by then
one of Rusee's aunt has a cat
Snow
omg. she's adorable!
maybe i should keep a cat
i dont think Aidil would mind. =D

ily (:

2007-10-20T12:48:00.000+08:00

'O' levels have started!
practical was 2 days ago
i'm so nervous!
i'm praying for you three
do your best okay? ((:

nawwarah's birthday passed too
but i missed it
me and kak bella bought her a Spongebob edition of Monopoly
i totally suck at that game
somehow i always end up in jail..

and of course
my darling nephews were there

i think they're waay too photogenic. haha

me and the gang broke fast at Lao Pa Sat that night
i didnt know they set up tables on the road
it was so cool!
the atmosphere was great
we had SATAY (yums), honey wings, fried rice, something else that is fried.
woah. what a feast. haha

yesterday had touch training
was soo much fun
Frankie started out making us play ultimate frisbee
okay i cannot catch that thing
even if my life depended on it
i think im better with rugby balls
haha

didnt stretch properly
so after training i was aching everywhere
thank goodness aidil was there for me
i had so much things to carry
((:

it was 4 days ago.
im so happy with you (:

after raya k guys?the 4 of us will go Haji Lane =D

and of course
Happy Raya everyone!
piccies soon

i dont need crocodile tears from a moronic jerk

2007-10-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

exams are over. ((:

the inter-house games on friday was kinda fun
im so grateful we have hui min in our team
haha we basically won because of her
so Aquila girls are in the finals for Basketball!

after my game rushed over to the futsal court
to watch Sagi play against Rasalas
i was giving my support. (:
then the Aquila guys played
it was really bad luck that Afiq hurt his ankle
in the middle of the game
he was our only hope
ah wells.

O Levels are in less than 3 weeks
im soo worried
had tuition just now after so long
had to stopped tutoring due to Mid Course
oh wow i miss them soo much!
i cant believe its been 8 months since i first started tutoring them
haha they're my friends now. (:
gonna have tuition twice a week now
since the Os are coming

had PW meeting in the morning
at Haziqah's house
WR is such a pain
cant wait for PW to be over
then we can all binge at Soul Garden!
hehe
looked through Haziqah's com
and i found pictures of our first malay modular
hilarious.

talked to yan last night about breaking fast
and our pending raya outing
i think its so unnecessary
and i so agree with yan
attention seeker i guess
you wanna talk about repenting during the fasting month?
oh please. you're the last person on earth
who should give that kinda advice

2007-09-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

promotional examinations tomorrow
are you ready?
cause i sure am not
morale was pretty low yesterday
Mr Lim showed us a presentation he prepared
our past reflections
looking back at what i wrote about Economics
and why i chose IJC
was exactly what i needed
that last burst of energy and spirit
to get through the Mid Course
it was so sweet of Mr Lim (:

its a scary world isn't it?
people are just getting meaner
its incomprehensible
how do you hate someone you've known for so long?
how do you bring yourself to hate that person?
how can you?
i can't.
i don't.
and how do you hate someone you don't even know?
what is there to hate?
how do you hate something that isn't there?

removing my tagboard does not signify fear
nor that i have succumb to your stupidity
i just cannot be bothered to entertain your nonsense
with exams coming so near

good luck for your promos everyone!

we'll make it through.
i can't wait for sunday. ((:

2007-09-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

IJC had our open house yesterday
can i just say it was the worse open house i ever experienced?
the school was practically empty
all the cca's were playing their own games
and to think me and naz broke our backs
doing up the touch poster. haha
ah well
should tell the school management
the next time they plan on having an open house
advertise it properly
and have it on a weekday
at least those sec schools in the surrounding area
can come after school
it being a weekend with such high temperatures
of course people wanna stay home. can you blame them?

ah well. beside the disaster that is our open house
i went to Funan IT mall afterwards with aidil
helped my brother upgrade our laptop
it runs faster now
=D
then we headed to Raffles City
had to collect my brother's comic books
Comics Mart.
for a comic store, its kinda small
and yes
everyone in the shop, apart from me and aidil, looked like GEEKS.
the shop assistants were busy playing cards
they didnt even realise we entered the shop
there were cool looking comics though
i saw the Jughead series. Simpsons. LOTR.
and of course, Justice League Unlimited, Spiderman, Superman, Batman.
all the works.
browsed a bit
then we rushed to BK to break fast
i have yet to spend my Swensens voucher. haha
im so sorry for forgetting to bring it along! =X
but thanks for keeping me company (((:

went to my sister's place for buke
faris came over again
i miss you you overly sized teddy bear
when are we going out again??

i need to get rid of my eye bags!

2007-09-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

are you trying to be the biggest jerks
ever to walk on the face of this earth?
cause you're doing a hell of a job
you're being so blatantly obvious
you might as well come up to me in school
and tell it to my face!
you bloody coward. all of you.
i know who the heck you are already.
so don't even bother trying to pretend anymore
im sure you're tired of pretending.

i thought i told you
not to place your germs and dirt here?
who the hell do you think you are
bringing in Aidil's name
Adil's name
even Xavier?
how low are you?
how dare you drag their names here.
how dare you associate them with your shit.
you dont even know Xavier
how dare you write his name
and place such a comment
how bloody rude can you get?
you dont know a thing about anything!

how childish and immature are you making yourselves out to be?
and then calling my phone
and pretending?
such fluent english you speak. im surprised.

im done trying to be nice.
spamming me once. and then spamming me at my friends' blogs.
and now this. you've just crossed the line.
if anything happens, trust me.
you're not gonna get away with it.

get this into your thick bald heads.

LEAVE US ALONE.

2007-09-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

this year, teacher's day was kinda fun
had aces in the morning
aquilla got 3rd. what the fish.
i really think we are discriminated
getting a bit sick of it actually.

so then we celebrated in class
Mr Lim was as usual, his cute blur self
we had pizzas! yummy.

so then it was the concert
i think it was okay
modern dancers were nice
anthea was super hot. haha
F.O.D was again doing their thing
very nicely done. (:

so me naz and ezah quickly went back to school
the one and only teacher we came back for was Cikgu Zelda
i dont know why but i miss her the most
and to think i hate malay language
(i think i still do)
but she made it bearable somehow
she makes fun of me and i return the favour
love-hate relationship you'd say
haha but i love her to bits!
and she's expecting!
and the baby's due in January
my birth month
i told her she should be proud
nyehehehe

my posture's really bad. hmm

then we went to town and met up with the boys
sooooooooo long since we last caught up
Taufik, Fairuz and Sufyan
those 3 are the most craziest clowns on earth
and i love them for it. haha
we spent around 4 hours sitting outside starbucks
sharing games and jokes and gossiping
couldn't remember the last time i had such a nice time
didnt wanna go home! haha

yan, taufik, fairuz

my 'let's go back for band practice!' buddy
i hate it when he has nicer hair than me.

girlfriends are love (:

i watched Ratatouille yesterday
its a really funny show
and me being a Pixar fan, all the better
breaking fast in the middle of a movie is a funny thing
but we had nachos and pretzels!
what could be more sinful than that? haha

after the movie we headed to Esplanade
went up to the roof
my very first time
and the view was awesome
the city skyline
the water
and music in the background
it was perfect
i couldn't ask for more
i felt on top of the world
i couldnt believe how happy i felt
and then i realised
how thankful i should be and how lucky i am
(:

im so happy that i've found you
im no longer afraid
-corrinne may

excuse my lovey-dovey posts.
i just feel incredibly happy. so dont mind me.
(:

2007-09-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

i wanna be with you
if only for one night
to be the one who's in your arms
who holds you tight
-mandy moore

i feel so happy today.

2007-09-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

3 days of school so far
i feel like dying
there's so much homework for me to complete
and due to my persistent procrastinating
the task seems more and more impossible to do
till today i still have not touch my Lit essays

weight training for PE elective
its actually kinda interesting
im learning all the different ways to train my muscles
i'll be toned in no time. =D
though i think i should start minding what i eat
or all my efforts would be a waste

anybody dared to miss HSM2 last week?
haha whole class was talking about it
i think HSM was kinda better in terms of plot
the plot this time was a bit predictable
i do like the songs though
its much less.. musical.
more radio friendly

omg i have got to start studying
im just digging my own pit right now
maybe Mr Lim shouldn't have told me im doing well
im so complacent now
its unbelieveable how lazy ive been
i literally do not care about my CAs anymore
especially for Malay
i feel so hopeless in Econs =/
reminds me of the times i had so much trouble with A.Math
god help me.

i feel so happy
and at the same time so torn
its been a long time since i last felt this hopeful
im starting to allow myself to open up my heart again
to allow myself to fall
wear it on my sleeve again
but at the same time
i dont wanna lose you
i didnt plan this
i didnt ask for it
it just happened
i feel like the WORST friend on earth
does happiness have to come at a price?

2007-09-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

before i get carried away talking about Tioman
i realised i haven't updated about POP.
i have piccies! nyehehe

aah my prize. so pretty, no?

the solo winners. *clap clap*

and that's the rest of us.
i have to say, i'm a fan of Wani. she has an AMAZING voice
personally i didn't think she deserved 3rd. ah well

and of course. F.O.D!
no idea what it stands for though
im a fan im a fan im a fan!
*screams* rusydi has a great vibe on stage
a true performer i think
they so deserve first place. haha

yes yes i look fat. stop it already.

and of course
not forgeting my lovely class
i sincerely thank them for their support
so touched by their poster
its so sweet
what would i do without you sweeties? (:

MUAH MUAH!

alright.
TIOMAN.

the start of the trip was definitely not a good one for me
my sister took my tioman shirt to her KL trip
i woke up late the next morning
couldn't find my wallet, wet shoes and what not
waited for the bus for 15 mins
before i realise the darn thing will never arrive
walked to the mrt station with my huge heavy bags
and walked all the way to school
to find everyone else waiting for me
and i was already sweating profusely.
not good.

i truly thought that maybe i wasn't meant to go to Tioman
upon reaching there, i changed my mind
i MEANT to be there with the rest.
the place is so beautiful

1st day

the whole day was taken up travelling there
so our activities really started in the evening.
we went for a snorkeling exercise
my first time ever
i was horrified.
there were black sea urchins not to mention sea cucumbers
but then it slowly dawned on me
that the whole thing was pretty nice
its a whole different world

i was so preoccupied trying to swim properly
(i cant swim for nuts)
i didnt really appreciate the whole thing at first
but i certainly did the next day

2nd day
so early next day before breakfast
we all had a scavenger hunt prepared by Mdm Mas
i think of all the items on the list
the weirdest would have to be 3 strands of white hair.
that's a bit gross
haha since im the only one in Stingray with a cam
i was in charge of pictures!

so the whole day was spent snorkeling
we snorkeled at 4 different places
the marine world is sooo beautiful
so many colours, fishes of all shapes and sizes
i like damsel fishes, including the name. haha!
we even went to a mangrove
was pretty shallow so we could walk around it
and for those who thought that mangroves were just
murky, dirty scary places
had a surprise waiting for them
that place was actually clean!
it was sooo nice

came back to melina beach in the evening
after dinner we all went for a night walk
and we saw lizards, flying foxes, hermit crabs
more fishes, no snakes thank god.

after dinner had a bit of free time
so we all started taking our cameras out
and snapping pictures
there was a LOT of teasing and laughter going around

after the night walk there was a bonfire
all the teachers started making noises and rusy took out her phone
played a song
and we all did the ACES workout
think this time
captain of Taurus didn't forget his moves *cough cough* haha

we didnt sleep that night
we stayed up to watch shooting stars
i saw 3 of them
made a wish (:
then the whole group of us talked
had a few confessions, first impressions, more jokes
till ms wong and mr azahar came over to tell us to sleep
cause it was past midnight
teehee

last day

woke up and even before breakfast we had a lecture on rainforests
afterwhich i had a heavy breakfast
was kinda hungry
lots of toasts, biscuits and EGGS.

then me, jiayi, wenqi and farhana quickly took pictures
in room 12. ((:

we found a dead bat outside our door
HAHA

during the jungle trek
the photographer in me came out
which is quite rare
i love the wild flowers
so pretty
we saw monkeys, eagles, termites, ants, lizards
all sorts of plants
it was like being in a live documentary

afterwhich we all had a rest
while feasting on Ramli Burgers!!!
*chomp chomp*

so before we headed to the ferry
i quickly took the last few mins
snapping pictures of the scenery

back in Singapore!

Tioman trip was an amazing experience
it opened my eyes to a LOT of things
made a whole new bunch of friends
whom i think without, the trip would have been boring
Mdm Mas was right
the people in this group
would always have something to talk about
and we all share something special
let's go back and watch the stars!

i wished upon a star for you

2007-09-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

if i kissed you
would fireworks fly
would angels sing with lollipops
would dinosaurs cry
would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
if i kissed you
-corrinne may

had PW meeting today
played games before i went off to study
so much fun! haha haziqah couldn't figure out anything (:

tioman was simply beautiful
i really am literally unable to describe it with words
i would not be able to do it justice
will upload the pictures soon
i really want to go back
really.

2007-08-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

well i got 2nd for POP
kinda disappointed cause i wanna perform for teacher's day concert
but oh well
im still happy though
mr sim said i received quite high marks
i learned that votes were pretty vital. haha
its okay. good enough for me ((:

going tioman from mon to wed
gonna be sooo much fun!!
and i think im pretty lucky to land in Stingray
feel so sorry for darling Melissa and Fairuz.
its okay sweeties we can still spend time together during the bonfire
yayness!!

right.
to whoever it is that's dissing me
i really have no idea what you have against me
i dont even know who the heck you are
but if you have the balls to write such a thing
then have some guts to put your name on it
have some pride in your handiwork
if you wanna diss me fine
but dont splatter your shit across my friends' blogs
they did nothing to you
and as far as i know
so did i
and hernando's right
i do have your IP address
so please
don't spread your germs here cause its not needed
grow up will you?
how old are you? 12?
be civilised
i dont want my blog to be contaminated with your shit
so you can buzz off

2007-08-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

its 11:30 and i havent dont a single thing
except watched Hairspray
*&*($)*^$#^$$^)@$&%&*%#
blogger is trying to mess with me
my post disappeared.
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i'll just upload the pics
and update tmrw k?
oh btw. Zac was HOT during the movie. ((:

naz cant stand ezah's smell. nyahahaha (:

ezah was trying to pick her nose but MISSED. hahaha

love this pic

will edit tmrw!! (:

2007-08-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

i got shortlisted.
ohmygod. =/
i remember when i read stories
and there's always the phrase
"i wish the earth would open up and eat me"
and i'd go, yeah yeah.
but that was EXACTLY what i felt on Friday.
never in my life have i really felt like disappearing off the face of this earth
when the video showed
i ducked behind my friend
but when my girlfriends screamed,
i dunno why i did it,
i just ran.
ran and ran and ran
till i realised
i could still hear my voice
echoing through the canteen
so reluctantly made my way back
was trambling from head to foot
GREAT.
i bet people think im such a looser now.
social suicide.
why did i do it? WHY?

all these talk of me singing
brought back memories of the Combo Band
i miss them even more now
i miss singing with paula and natasha
i miss danial's voice
i miss suffian's drum-playing
i miss Kenneth's sexaphone-playing
i miss Zhi Hao's cornet-playing
and i definitely miss Mr Mazri's guidance
too bad we can't get together anymore

found old pics of us. haha

this was during our Christmas show at Taka.
i was looking blur cause we weren't in sync with the rest of the band
panicking. haha

the headmics were UBER cool lah
i loved singing Sleigh Ride.
hmm maybe we can go back during Christmas..

and this was taken at the Swissotel
had to perform during an MOE seminar or something
think all sorts of ministers from Asean were there
wasn't really fun cause all i could see were old people
haha but i guess they were pretty important
important enough for the band to be ordered to wear our number 1 Uni.
great food too. hah

watching Hairspray tmrw with Ezah and Naz
been waay too long since i last went to town.
i need new shoes lah.
and clothes.
can't wait!

i won't delete you from my contact list
nor will i block you off
though i expect you to have already done so
and i think i shan't comment about our situation anymore
cause i see no point in dissing you
and it'll only prolong this ridiculous phase
we're no longer in secondary school
and plus. i have enough sin.
believe me. we're not sour because you don't wish for us to be friends
you cant force someone to be your friend
im just upset with the way you ended things
and for what you did to us
things could have gone much more smoother
and we won't be on such horrible terms
im glad you've found friends you can trust
but just for you to note.
the one who told us you missed us IS one of your new found friends
i don't know who's lying
but there's way too much drama
and i just have no time or energy to entertain

2007-08-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

after 2 gruelling days filled with tests
my brain's feeling fried!
lit test was horrible
i was sleeping while answering GP test
and my mind went blank during econs
i have nothing to say for malay
mid course coming.
pressure pressure pressure

had the POP auditions just now
so nervous!!
been so long since i sang alone
so used to haveing combo band behind me
singing without natasha and paula was nerve wrecking
and im missing them already ):
hope i make it though! hehe

if you severed ties with people
what do you expect? plus 3?
stop trying to make people feel sorry for you
cause its making me sick
we didn't ask for this in case you forgotten
this was all on your terms
so don't start regretting and saying you miss us
cause that's bullshit.

2007-08-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

sunday morning rain is falling

i slept in today
felt so lethargic and frankly
i couldn't be bothered waking up so early
which is strange cause im a morning person. =D
cleaned the kitchen and did my laundry
oh and my sister's too
i hope that girl realise how lucky she is
honestly. she doesn't do a thing in the house.

was finally settling down into my lunch with the tv on
and didn't realise it was raining
GREAT.
that's the 3rd time its happened to me
and its gonna be the 3rd time i'll smell like rain.
Akmal says its okay cause i would smell natural.
right.

met up with Akmal for a bit just now
cause he forgot to pay me ystd
wanted to get donuts
but the queue was way too long
bought 4 jollibean pancakes instead
CHOCOLATE!!

i watched Rush Hour 3 with Naz and Ezah on Friday
was suppose to meet Ismail too
but he couldn't make it
its okay Is! we'll meet another day! ((:
the movie was okay i guess
i liked the Martial Arts School scene
that was funny.
but the plot was pretty horrible
and the movie was too short
to me the best is still Rush Hour
oh and not forgetting the Bloopers
HAHA!

next day before tuition
caught up with Zul again
wanted to see Disturbia but it wasn't showing
so we caught Bourne Ultimatum instead
i've always liked Matt Damon
such a cutie
but a bit odd to see him on the big screen
without George Clooney or Brad Pitt by his side
speaking of which, i hear Ocean's 14 is coming. woopeee!

went hopping around blogs for a bit
and collected pictures from the Heritage Trail
((:

i don't know what happened to Melissa. haha

i like this pic (:

mummy always said i look as pretty as a flower

see what i mean?

2007-08-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

weee!
okay first things first
i miss my blog!!
(:

sooo many things have happened since i last updated
let's just say people change
you can't do nothing bout it
oh and also i really think
that some are really stupid.
i know, who am i to say who's stupid
but i don't mean in the intellectual sense
i mean they must have some brains to enter IJC
but i think they really really lack common sense
compassion and consideration
ah well

tuesday's the audition!
im super nervous.
what is i stink? what if people laugh at me?
what if they throw tomatoes or watermelons at me?

haha some pics from touch
(:

2007-07-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
and everybody feels a broken heart sometime
and even when im scared i have to try to fly

well.
its been exactly 10 days since ive been at imprisoned at home
okay thats not fair.
my family's been treating me pretty nicely these days
not complaining about that. (:

being stuck at home for so long
does funny things to a person's mind. hah
if not for the many many dvds that Naz sent me
i think i would have died out of boredom
funny how i'd kill to go to school now
as oppose to a few months ago when i just wanted to stay in bed
heh.

i never expected to get chicken pox. its truly ridiculous
the timing could not have been more imperfect
i missed soooooo many things
first day i got it i was in denial
i couldnt have chicken pox
i mean ive been wanting to get it since primary school
but when i didnt i guess it just wasnt my time OR
i was too healthy? pffft.

i missed my PCF days
my NDP umbrella rehearsal
(which by the way i was really looking forward to cause i wanted NDP tickets)
i missed PCF Appreciation Dinner
2 weeks worth of tuition
a whole week of school
my Project Work interview with Glenn Lim
(UNBELIEVEABLE)
when i sat down and thought through what i was gonna miss
i got so upset that i cried. its so unfair
not only was the stupid disease making me really miserable and itchy
not to mention disgusted at my own body
and not being able to see ANYONE other than the ppl living in the house,
i became superbly broke too
of course mom wouldnt give me allowance since im gonna stay home
and since i missed tuition i didnt get my pay
to top it all off
i have to pay $30.50 for Econs notes Lit book and class fund
and i just discovered i might have to cough up $16 for Glenn Lim
wonder if i could just seep into depression
life sucks pretty much at the moment

maybe that's why God made it up to me
by allowing me tons of sleep
and lotsa television
not very wise since im already a junkie to begin with
but heck. i have chicken pox.

so. watched a lot of movies.
naz sent me a lot of chic flicks (my fav)
you know those kinds of movies where
right after you watch it
you immediately start dreaming about the perfect guy
and all the romantic stuff he'll do just for you
uh huh. asking for trouble right naseha?
cause it only makes me realise how horrible my love life is.
but. i wont go there. i dont want to ramble on about how sucky not being able to find the perfect guy is.
so i watched
1)Mean Girls
2)13 Going on 30 (love love)
3)Just Like Heaven
4)My Super Ex Girlfriend
5)Shall We Dance?
6)Music & Lyrics (incredible)
7)Bridget Jones Diary 2, The Edge of Reason
8)The Break-Up
9)Premonition
10)You, Me & Dupree
11)The Little Man
12)Teenage Drama Queen

a few tv series has ended, in case you didnt know
Heroes is over. i thought the ending was pretty good
till i realise Sylar didnt die and the Petrelli brothers died
oh and there's going to be a 2nd season

Hayden Panettiere. oh god. she is soooo pretty
and its not the type where you'll go
oh-she's-so-pretty-i-bet-she's-a-bitch-and-i-hate-her.
she's actually admirable. ((:
im soo loving her hair.
and get this. she's only 18. and she's younger than Melissa!
hate her yet?

ive also taken a liking to Milo Ventimiglia aka Peter Petrelli
saw him in Fergie's video "Big Girls Don't Cry"
he's really handsome.

oh Prison Break Season 2
amazing. love love love it.
think its ending soon.
wonder if there'll be another season.
i still cant believe Wentworth is black.
oopsie daisy. African American i mean.
but i dont really care
he has the most gorgeous eyes ive ever seen on any human being
if he calls my name the way he says Sarah's name on the show
i'd die a happy woman.

i just saw High School Musical 2 video 'What Time Is It'
Zac is gonna be in Hairspray. *beams*
was surfing the net looking for icons
and saw a few of him and Vanessa

his new hair-do btw
totally suits him. those 2 are purrfect for each other come on!

ive also been keeping track of The Hills on MTV
something very similar to Laguna Beach
only there's no beach and no guys on the cast
just girls. love seeing them getting through life and trying to find guys.
oh btw. it also shows clearly how a guy can never resist the temptation to cheat on a girl.

ooooh. harsh?

its kinda addictive in some way. oh and the show always makes me wanna go shopping for new clothes. (((:
brokebrokebrokebrokebrokebrokebroke~

2007-06-25T15:17:00.000+08:00

phew!
holidays are finally over
for those who may not know
i've been fighting an ongoing battle with lethargism
oh. and also lazy-ism actually. not to mention insomnia.
not being able to be alert enough in the afternoons
(im not even awake in the mornings)
can only sit on my chair and study at around 1 plus
i have no idea why
but that's when i actually have the mood to read all those
huge, thick Geog lecture notes
and study powerpoint slides i got for Econs.
so i end up sleeping at 3-4 usually. which is totally unnatural for me.
i think it all started during Irwin's birthday party
my uncle and aunt, Pak Busu, Mak Busu
came over for the celebrations
they stayed till late cause my grandparents were staying at the house
it was 11 pm
Pak Busu and Faris had the sudden urge to go bowling
since its the holidays
thought it would be fun
we reached the bwloing alley at 1am
amazingly there were a lot of people
i didn't even know the bowling alley opens till so late!
we stayed till 2 i think
then Pak Busu drove us to Mustapha to go shopping
unbelieveable!
we had a bit of prata before setting off
me and my sisters were let loose. haha
saw a lot of cheap things!!
and Mak Busu told me to get my Adidas bag just like she promised
but there weren't any nice ones except for 1 green one
really cute. but i set my eyes on something else
PERFUME! hahaa
they got me J Lo's Glow After Dark. oooooooooooh!

that's me and Nawwarah at the alley
oh i got 2nd that morning. score:195 (2games)
not bad eh? ;)

My sister's company had their annual Family Day at Discovery Centre on saturday
being the good loving adorable little sister that i am (=D)
i accompanied her since she left the maid to care for Iman at home
i've never been to DC actually.
thought it was just something like Science Centre
it was okie i guess.
same kind of games and food (KFC!)
except this year they had boat paddling
which i did not go on because the sun was simply scorching hot!
it was so hot it was ridiculous
so i decided against it and just stayed under the shade
while the host entertained a bit
and the DJ played music
a lot of great music came on
i noted them down.
so now my MP4 isn't just laden with Lifehouse, Hady and Taufik. haha

i just wanna pinch his cheeks!

ilhan took this. smart eh?

and that's Nurul. my cousin/tutee/very funny friend. cute too! watch out boys. haha

see that's them at our weekly spot
Tampines Mart MacDonalds. Shikin beside Nurul.
hmm don't have Akmal's picture.
will take one this weekend.
can't wait. starting to miss them already. haha

first day of school!!
well everything went normal
malay paper was do-able
prosedure close was kinda tough though
and i rushed through my summary
so i think i'll get crappy marks for that
after the paper me, Naz and Ezah went to Causeway for breakfast
had hotcakes. didn't even finish it. talked for almost 3 hours
had a good laugh
talked about our absent love life
studies.
the past. aaah. memories. sweet.

i stumbled upon my picture with Ee Chow yesterday night
and the familiar pang of hurt came back
and a few tears flowed.
its amazing how happy we look in the pictures
could never tell that the entire thing was one-sided
i couldn't tell
he looked happy
how was i to know he was losing feelings?
why is it i can't get over you Ee Chow?
what the heck did you do to me to make me fall so hard?
pictures from our study dates,
west coast outings,
our date at Fish & Co where i couldn't finish my disgusting spaghetti
and you offered your fish,
us studying at Jurong library.
god. i don't know why i still feel the hurt. =(

2007-06-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

argh! i can't seem to be able to update regularly nowadays
haizzzzz...
okie first things first
sports day pictures!!!! heh. long over due. im an ass i know. (:

aite. so what have i been up to these last 2 weeks
apart from school. been keeping up with tuition
the great thing is it doesn't feel like im working
cause unlike my sister, i dont teach 9 primary school kids
feels like im hanging with a bunch of friends
i just happen to be coaching them in maths
which is why i look forward to tuition every week
i always have a good laugh with them (:

i think someone needs to knock me in the head
i gotta start studying for real
been trying to read up on Geography
ive finished reading the mankillers
now all i gotta do is organise all the geog notes and study them
then afterwhich i have to start on literature
wanna get tips from my sister
then i'll reluctantly do Econs.
pfft. i hate economics. i should have taken H2 maths instead
i can't make it for the essays lah.
its senseless. you can't write such a good econs essay in such a short time!!

oh anyways can put up pictures from Shrek 3 outing
=D

haha!

ciak!!

(:

2007-06-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

oh this post is going to be filled with pictures. =D

COP/SAFRA FORUM
there were no guys that day
it was just us girls
we had soo much fun that it got me thinking
maybe it ain't that bad to be in a girl's school huh?
mmmm...

every morning we sing the 'Good Morning' song before we start lessons
simple repetitive lined song
"hello how are you" 4X
"i am fine thank you" 4X
im not really sure why they teach the kids that song
cause that sure ain't how we all greet each other nowadays

i was teaching them the Chicken Dance! haha

Halimah and Aiman

Mel and her kid

Rusy and Syawal

that's Naufal. ((:

so after the whole programme
we went to Banquet at Vista Point to eat lunch
then the bus took us to Yishun SAFRA

Miss Innova Pageant and the winner is
*drum rolls*
Number 8!

Fairuzms

Then we went Bowling!!!!

girls just wanna have fun

haha Fairuz did this

so the next day
we were scheduled to attend a play
Midsummer Night's Dream to be exact
and it was amazing!
i loved it!
the only downside was the weather
being clumped up with a lot of people on a field
with spotlights on every corner
on an unbelieveably hot and humid night
ain't exactly comfortable
but i endured the heat and sweat for a while to see it
its soo much more worth my $14
haha

yes yes. i look stupid. (:

went to watch Shrek 3 yesterday with my girlfriends
haven't been on a proper outing with them since April
we had so much fun
Faezah still as kooky as ever
and Khairin so pretty!!
Naz loves the cam now. hehehe
im still very shy *beams*
ezah said there's gonna be a 4E3 outing soon, chalet
i don't know if i should go
not exactly looking forward to the prospect
of meeting Ee Chow *sigh*
ah well. i'll think about it
anyways ezah passed me this pic
i miss chin yun!!

TAMAT finally finished our project
video on PCF's Sports Day held at Innova
dont have the pics yet
but i think our video is cool
could be good enough to be aired on Suria
of course that won't happen
cause we used a lot of songs that we don't have any license to
haha

when is 0741C's outing? anyone?

2007-05-30T09:45:00.001+08:00

thanks to Melissa Chin, im currently addicted to Martina McBride's My Valentine.
such a sweet song
haha
there's still lessons going on in school even though its the holidays
im just waiting for the weekends

gonna watch Shrek 3 with my darling Turtles
afterwhich, will be watching Pirates with Zul
yayness!!
went to meet Zul on Sunday
he was having a family outing at Pasir Ris
he invited me along and i met his family
his little brother is uber cute lah
same age as my little sister
Zul's family is a bunch of really really really nice people
thanks Zul! ((:

im sorry to those whom i still have yet to pass pictures to
i'll do it by the end of the week k? (((:

there's Touch Tournament today! im nervous. cause i think i still stink. -.-

2007-05-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

its the last day of school
finally i can breathe *phew*
ive been wanting to update my blog quite badly
after so many tries, i finally decided to just do it today
before i procrastinate again

FYI
im feeling fine
i guess i was just feeling very-the-PMSy on my last post
i didn't realise i sounded so 'depressed'
did i? cause i still dont think i sounded that bad.
but after reading all the tags
just wanna clarify
that i am fine (:
haha
i really dont know what came over me
i guess my mind got really really cloudy
but now that holidays are on
its getting clearer
and im gaining back control over myself

so anyways
got a few pictures from Sports Day from Cikgu Ali
i love the cheerleaders
we all look soooooo adorable
hahaha
let's have a gathering!!

Ameerul leading the pack

Kat! don't drop Cat! (:

the flyers

us

i just wish we can do it again next year

tmrw is PCF Sports Day!
K1 kids gonna come to IJC for their sports day
and Haz, Fairuz and I are gonna do a 'documentary' on it
its gonna be so much fun!
can't wait to see Naufal. (:

2007-05-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

when a group of people get together to work on something
a beautiful friendship is created. (:
i miss them already

i wanna update
but i dont have all the pics yet
went for COP today
and Naufal told me he missed me (:
the kids are gonna have their Sports Day at IJC next saturday
and im gonna be a 'cheerleader' again
and on 1st July, we're going to the ZOO! =D
after COP went to the PAYM forum
the guest speaker actually sat at my table to talk to my group
there was only Halimah and me from a JC
the other 3 people were University students
i wanted to contribute to the discussion, i really did
but my head was still groggy and i was feeling too tired
so whatever that came out of my mouth, if it did, wouldn't sound intelligent at all
and there were NJC, RJC students present as well
and yes, Polytechnic students
but they left in the middle of the whole thing -.-
afterwhich the girls all played bowling at SAFRA
i had gutter balls at first
but after that i started hitting pins
and finally a STRIKE! heh

watching Midsummer Night's Dream tmrw with the class
we're gonna have a class picnic at Fort Canning
can't wait.
my blog will be filled with pictures soon (:

shit. i cant get you out of my head. =/

2007-05-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

Spiderman 3

the most fun-nest time i had this month
watched with Zul. haha finally a 3 year promise was fulfilled!
zul picked me up and we headed to Vivo.
not surprisingly all the slots were taken
so zul came up with the idea that we watch it at Marina Sq instead
i didn't even know Marina Sq had a cinema
and true enough
the cinema wasn't even packed when the movie started
coolness
then we went to dinner and zul brought me to Bukit Timah
i cant remember the place
but i know its next to Al-Amin (is it?)
anyways bumped into Andy over there
had Milo Dinosaur!!! hehe fun lah

think the best part of the day
was realising that no matter how UN-often
me and zul meet up
we'll always remain close
its great knowing you have someone like that
so Thanks a Gazillion Zul!!

oh we didn't take pic lah.. -.-

i have very goofy friends
they keep me alive in school (:

oh and thanks guys for tagging!!!! (((:

2007-05-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

i didn't know you could turn out to be such a brat

had NAPFA today. ran 2.4KM
my timing wasn't too bad
i improved from last year! heh
i plan to stretch myself till the next PE lesson
where we have our 5 stations
then maybe, just maybe i can pass my Sit&Reach
oh. and i gotta learn how to fly, if i want to pass me Standing BroadJump
Begum made an interesting comment about NAPFA
why judge people on how fast they run or how far they jump?
if they fail, are you just gonna make them do it again?
what's the point?

food for thought eh? haha

im totally screwed for me upcoming tests
i have no idea how im suppose to cope with everything
i havent studied for Econs! i don't wanna fail it again
i foresee no sleep tonight. *sigh*
malay module project, geography readings, literature assignments
Vocab and Article files, OCOP, Touch, Aquilla Cheerleading
on top of all this, im worried about my cousin
been tutoring her for over a month now
and she's taking her Mid Year exams already
so fast!
if she fails, i dont know what i'll do. *sighsigh*

dear ex-bf
please stop haunting me in my sleep
im tired of crying for you

thanks

2007-04-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

saw American Idol Gives Back episode
and fell in love with Carrie's version of 'I'll Stand By You'
its super nice! i love how simple they made the song
so Idol Gives Back raised money for the people in Africa
showing all the really impactful pictures
and Mdm Gowri asked us to look for pictures depicting Famine
omg i felt pretty miserable for a few days
its such a sad state
and to think im complaining about the food in the canteen
=X

anyways
life is pretty much crazy now
i definitely have minimal ME-time
i spend soooo much time in school
so im usually eating the canteen food
i seriously miss mummy's cooking
speaking of which
i have no idea where mummy got her capital from
but i came home today and she showed me
her newly bought video camera
wah mummy! how come suddenly so loaded?
and she gleefully smiled at me
-.-
so i took the opprtunity to tell her about the 4.5K trip to UK
i REALLY wanna go. =/
its probably the only chance i have to go to Cambridge for 2 weeks
im still formulating plans to trick mom into saying yes
^^

today's COP was fun
Naufal actually remembered my name!
im so touched.
me: naufal remember my name or not?
naufal: kak NAS! hehehe

oh god he's so damn cute
i think i should take a pic soon. nyehe

oh as promised! (:

2007-04-19T09:54:00.000+08:00

Rascal Flatts
What Hurts The Most

i could take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that dont bother me
i can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
im not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going home with you gone still upsets me
there are days every now and again i pretend im okia
but thats not what gets me

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
never knowing
what could have been
and not see that loving you
is what i was trying to do

its hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but im doing it
its hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and im alone
still harder getting up getting dressed living with this regret
but i know if i could do it over
i would trade give away all the words that i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do
yeah

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

not seeing that loving you
thats what i was trying to do
oooh

watched Dancefloor yesterday
and i saw the segment where they showed Soul Fusion dancing to this
it was really nice
so decided to check out the song
and i saw the music video
i teared up!
its soo sad
and all the sudden i started thinking about him again
think i'll use this song for Literature
Ms Nathan wants us to choose a love song
and discuss with the class why we chose it
there's a billion and one love songs that i like
but only a handful made me tear. and this is one of them
(sorry Ezah. Im getting emo day by day. heh. Sorry lah. Lit student what. =D)

2007-04-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

Finally got to celebrate Khairin's birthday
Dear Khairin Aisyah
Happy 17th birthday!
sorry for not wishing you sooner
i havent been updating my blog for a while
but anyways
may all your wishes and dreams come true
work hard for Promos!!!
and thanks a million for being the most dependable person i know
you're the best girlfriend! (:

shoppingzzzzz

swensen-ing.

such kukus we are (:

ismail!!! haha met him while we were going home
he had to pass khai her present.
look how CUTE he is!!!!!
im refering to the bear, not Is. (:
haha k lah k lah. Is, you're still cute. but im CUTER. heh. =D

i wanna take him home with me!!

so blur but nevermind. still post it.

see? told you we're spastic people.

i brought them over to my sister's house for a while
and they got to play with my nephews.
i finally have Iman's picture.
omg he is so chubby.

then of course the usual
Ismail became a 'celebrity' for a while

but photobucket has trouble uploading mine.
so the BEST is yet to come! haha

(:

im piled under so much work and stress
that sometimes i dont even bother to go toilet
to think i have to go through this all the way till next year
makes my hair go grey. -.-

2007-04-08T17:32:00.000+08:00

there was a family gathering on Friday
my paternal side
my aunt just moved to Jurong
her new house looks chic
just recovered from my gastric flu
so i didnt eat that much
but i had so much fun with my darling nephews
all getting waay too handsome for their own good haha

ilhan.

irfan.

look at his hair sexily ruffled!! haha

studied Econs and caught up with it (i hope)
i understand Elasticity of Demand
its just the graphs, cant seem to comprehend them
and i did 1/5 of my geography assignment
couldn't do Lit
think Ms Nathan will kick my ass tmrw

went out yesterday
went to see 2 movies, courtesy of Ahmad (thanks again!!)
had a lot of fun with him
watched Meet the Robinsons
and Freedom Writers
oh my god Freedom Writers is such a good movie
and Meet the Robinsons is surprisingly funny
i laughed my butt off in the theatre
then we went to Vivocity
walked around a bit and shoped for stationery
i now know that PageOne exists
and its such a cute store
(see how deprived i am?)
and Ahmad treated me to Ben & Jerry
for a chocolate lover like me
Ben & Jerry was heaven
hahah thanks sooo much Ahmad! (:

2007-04-04T17:29:00.000+08:00

3 days MC
hadn't been to school since Monday
how many billions of lessons have i missed?
im so screwed i tell you!
why did i have to fall sick?
gastric flu no less!
still
i just wanna be thankful (thank you God!)
for bringing me back my health
at least my high fever is gone
and my head doesn't spin too much
i can't believe i miss school so much
miss Khai and Naz and Ezah so much
speaking of which
Khai and Naz sent me a 'fruitbasket' yesterday
so so so so sweeeeeet!!!
i love them to bits i tell you
and my sweet darlings from 41C
sending my 'get well soon' smses
you guys are so sweet (:
oh and thanks to Ahmad for keeping me updated on my stuff
esp my geography

oh god i have Econs test tmrw
i need to study!!
and i havent even taught Ezah yet
i hope she can ask her classmates or something for help

.....
.......
.........

mr lim just gave me a call
okie now im even more stressed
caused i missed waaaay too many lessons

help!

2007-04-01T19:34:00.000+08:00

camp was fun
im darker now
and i dont like it. =/
used tons of sunblock, and i still look burned. *sigh*
i can only say that the highlight of the entire camp was the campfire
that was really really really fun
best campfire ive ever been to. (:
many interesting things happened
some people snored (very unexpected)
and i stole Melissa's jacket in the middle of the night
i did it while i was asleep! so sorry melissa!! =X

so the next day had leadership seminar
it was okie but i was too tired to enjoy it properly
second day came and in the middle of the acitivities
i fell really ill
developed high fever
it got so bad
i had to go home
so i went off during lunch
thank goodness ahmad sent me home
thanks ahmad!

thought the fever would go away sooner or later
so i figured i should just rest in bed the entire day
when i woke up the next day
my fever got worse
and my entire body felt awfully sore
kept noting down my temperature regularly
and the highest i went was 39.2
):
that's the highest ive ever had
felt so miserable in bed
too weak to do anything at all
and any sudden movements would make my head spin till it hurts

next day
i got so fed up with my illness
that i told my mom to allow me to visit the doc
so Doc gave me med for fever, flu, cough and sore throat
and i have MC for Monday
gonna miss a lot of lessons
*sigh*

2007-03-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

i think people in this world need to be nicer
i think people in this world need to be less selfish
i think people in this world need to be less conceited
i think people in this world need to be more understanding
i think people should be more caring
i think people should be less arrogant
i think people should see that not everyone has to revolve around them

(:
this isn't directed to anyone.
its just some generalisation on my part
mummy spoke to me just now
she was getting concerned about how im spending my time
which is rare, cause usually she just shouts at me. haha
but i get where she is coming from
i just need a bit more time to find my balance
i need to re-adjust, adapt and live
balancing lectures,
tutorials,
projects,
friends,
touch rugby,
old friends,
best friends,
tuition,
outside activity
all this while maintaining my sanity

so i just wanna apologise to some people in my life
in case i havent been there for you guys
just give me some time to find my balance

2007-03-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

all it took was a picture
a picture of you and i came crashing down
i guess these few months ive been lying to myself
thinking you no longer affect me
thinking i was over you
thinking that i have finally moved on

they say a picture paints a thousand words
seeing you, i could only think of one, hurt
you looked good. i noticed your new hair
and all the sudden i remembered, everything
your smile, your laugh, your smell, your touch
you looked so happy. i wish i could say the same
would it be fair? that i want to be happy and you miserable?
would it be evil if i wished we switched places?
you, thinking about me, and me not having a care in the world?

i guess it really is my own fault
maybe i should have cautioned myself
and not fall for you so hard
maybe i should have read the signs
and plucked up the courage to leave you much earlier than i did
maybe i should have had more sense in telling myself
that i deserve better than that
i know all this, i know you no longer will be in my life
then why is it that i miss you?
why is it that i still feel the pain of losing you
like as if it happened yesterday?
the pain felt so raw that it surprised me

i guess that's just it
im not ready
i dont know when i ever will be
the thought of being in another relationship
gives me nightmares
it scares me to think that the moment i fall for someone
and i start to open up to someone
he has the upperhand
and at any time, i could just be let down again and again...

im tired of picking myself up from heartbreaks
im tired of letting myself getting heartaches
im not ready
im just not
maybe time would heal
im still waiting

2007-03-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

ooh i love my new song!
Katherine McPhee is so skinny now
her shoulders so pointy and boney
reminds me of Ezah actually. haha
but she's still such a beautiful person

so anyways
yesterday was the touch competition
we got third
but i played for about 3 mins
oh wait. i think less than that haha
but ah well
i prefered to cheer at the sides
cause im not even good at touch yet
i simply suck at it
but cheering was damn fun. my voice is getting hoarse though
after tournament
it was already 7 plus
stayed back to play social touch with the Wonderers
filled with Ang Mohs.
but all buff men. and yes. HOT. hehehe

so then i quickly showered (so refreshing!)
then hurried to yio chu kang station cause Mr Abdullah was waiting
he had to be a referee at NYP
and ended around 8
so we decided to have dinner
he treated me to Swensens *keke*
it was fun catching up and talking to him
updated each other and stuff
then finally came home
Mr Abdullah gave me a few tips on how to make myself more flexible
so i did stretches before i slept

woke up the next morning and i nearly died
couldn't move my limbs
but i forced myself out of bed and showered
cause i had to travel to Nurul's house for tuition
im so glad that bus 168 exist
its so much faster by bus than by train
and i get to sleeep!
the only downside was that i couldn't listen to my mp4
cause it still wasn't fixed

reached Nurul's house at 9. coached her on E Maths till 11.30
poor thing
hope her brain wasn't fried
came home and got off the bus
and bumped into Glenn, Charles and Jo
Glenn tried to persuade me to watch movie
but i felt soo bad for not being home
i decided to be a good daughter
and come home
of course not before i had my lunch at Long Johns. nyehehe

so by the time i got home
i got really fed up with my mp4
decided to call the customer service people
and!!
turns out i dont have to go to Marina Square
i already fixed it
they told me how to through the phone
so yes!!! my mp4's back *jumps up and down*

blog hopped for a bit
and found pics on Fairuz's blog
she so cute lah
post pictures never tell me
haha i only took a few
if you wanna see all the unGlam pics just go her blog. (:

me and Charles

Carte Blanche

these 3 wore red to support us.
thanks Adil, Ahmad and Shazly (:

that's kooky Marissa (:

aah and the photographer of the day, Fairuz!

i like this picture

2007-03-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

Carte Blanche
even though we didn't make it
i had a blast
we still have one last performance together
assembly period.
looking forward to it. (:

just came back from Sim Lim Square
travelled all the way there
hoping my mp4 would get fixed
turns out i have to go to marina square instead
but i was waay too tired and decided to go home
did the school's corporate video
i pray to god they won't screen it to the school
i dont care if they screen it to the secondary kids
but please oh please not IJ students
i really have no idea how i looked on camera
and im not so much a photogenic person.
they took so long i had no idea why
we reported to school at 730
we ended around 130
that's a total of 6 hours
i was simply famished by then
so me, Jo, Jyaas and Iris headed down to BK
oh and another guy joined us
im soo sorry i cant remember his name
but he has COOL shoes. haha

aite
i finally have pictures of Faezah's bdae
nyehehehehe
shall i let the pictures do the talking?

that's Me, Naz and Khai towning looking for ezah's prezzies

why in the world did i hunch? -.-

khairin looks so cute!

but i look CUTER (:

see? Ezah wasn't expecting anything, which explains the outfit. haha

Pics with the Birthday Girl (:

dont we all look cute? (:
and one of us look HOT. guess who?

that's a last minute picture in the train. nyeheheheh

i thought you said to not let this affect our friendship?
if this is the way you're gonna handle the situation
then i guess i cant do anything about it
i just wish you'd stop ignoring me
and be a friend
just like you said.

2007-03-09T10:50:00.000+08:00

PLEASE SUPPORT US

GO TO TAKA AT 1pm THIS SAT (TMRW)

AND PLEASE WEAR THE COLOUR RED

BECAUSE IF YOU DO

WE WILL WIN THE BEST SUPPORTED GROUP

SUPPORT US!

2007-03-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

Danceworks

this coming saturday is the day of our competition
Danceworks 2007
i cant wait to get the goodie bads
gonna be sooo cool
hahhaa
i finally have pics of our group members
weeeee!

soo cool!! anthea's multi-purpose hall has a TV
and it actually works!! we watched Pokemon on Kids Central for a while

beatrice
such a petite girl. but fiesty! haha damn cute lah she

shu han (:

i dont know why we were touching our feet. haha!

that's anthea!!! her condo very nice.
see Charles emo-ing at the back? haha

Kat tied my hair and wanted to take a picture.
but im so shy *grin*

found out that we might be seperated.
damn it!!! i hate the sch admin for doing that. *sobs*

2007-03-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: January 24

For you, love is a natural progression from friendship. You are almost always friends first.
In love, you are loyal, steady, and honest. You are not a cheater or even much of a flirt.
You are likely to stay friends with your ex... and open to rekindling something in the future.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 6th, 15th, and 24th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

*laughs histarically, rolls all over the floor*
what the fish?
1 time only???
are you freaking kidding me?
puhleez! i've already had my heart broken more than that
4 true loves?
i dont get it.
if its true love, why do you need so many?
only need one what?
why make life so confusing for yourself?
i have to say the part i agree with is
how they described me
that one is super super true
maybe the last part is debatable
rekindling things with my ex?
*sigh*
he's very happy now
why make him miserable,
right ee chow?

2007-02-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

been watching Spiderman 2 on AXN
i've fallen in love all over again
with Tobey Maguire!! *grins*
i think Peter Parker and Mary-Jane are the best comic book couple ever
Peter Parker is the sexiest comic character in my opinion
and Tobey playing Peter makes it even more hot!
oh and im seriously addicted to the soundtrack
nyehehhee

Train - Ordinary

Whose eyes am I behind
I don’t recognize anything that I see
Whose skin is this design
I don’t want this to be the way that you see me

I don’t understand anything anymore
In this world that I’m tired of
Is taking me right up these walls
That I climb up
To get to your story
It’s anything but ordinary

And when the world is on its knees with me its fine
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine
‘Cause your what I need so very but im anything but ordinary

Can you save me from this world of mine
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation
You are the one look what you’ve done
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke
You’re just a kid
You weren’t ready for what you did

And when the world is on its knees with me its fine
And when I come to the rescue I do it for you time after time
Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine
‘Cause you what I need so very but im anything but ordinary

I think im trying to save the world from you
You’ve been saving me too
We could just stay in and save each other

Im anything but ordinary
(ordinary)
Im anything but ordinary
(ordinary)

saw the Spiderman 3 trailer
i seriously cannot wait.
i cant wait to watch it with Zul! hahaha
my most favourite part is the dialogue between Pete and MJ
MJ: Are you trying to push me away?
Pete: Why would i wanna push you away? i LOVE you

*sigh*

where the hell is MY Peter Parker?

2007-02-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

omg. this was taken more than 2 years ago
haha chance upon it in Naz's old phone. hehe
surprise birthday party for Faezah's went smoothly
and it was GREAT.
but aint gonna update on that cause aint got the pics
muahahahaa

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY MOST PRECIOUS PIKUCHI!
i love you! be the strong minded person you are
and have faith in yourself
you can get through anything
if you just have faith
sisters for life
*muack mauck*

2007-02-24T22:44:00.000+08:00

My Holiday List

[ X] wash all clothes (inc. socks, uniforms, jeans, shirts, unmetionables, and SHOES)
[ X ] tidy up wardrobe
[X] reorganise file system
[ ] mention new shelves to daddy again
[X] reorganise filing system in mp4
[ X ] get new songs into mp4
[ ] buy more ankle socks
[ ] buy facial wash before current one finishes
[ X] get songs that's used for Danceworks
[X] learn Touch Rugby rules and regulations
[X] practice answering Econs questions
[ ] start my GP resource file
[ ] and also my Vocab notebook
[X] finish up assignments from Maths
[X] read through Geog lectures and understand them
[ ] start my list of known authors for Literature
[X] return my library books before due date

*important! do immediately
*just make sure you do it before end of holidays
*dont forget to do them

not bad for a procrastinator such as myself
*pats shoulder*

first and foremost
i wanna wish a happy belated birthday to 2 very special people

KAK AMIRA
i wanna put your pic up!!
but believe it or not
we've never taken a picture together
such horror!!!
please please lets go out soon
so i can take picture with a cutie like yourself
*muack muack*
may all your dreams come true!! (:

JOELLE TYEA ENVER
dont act like you dont know!!
hahah happy belated birthday Jo!
stay the fun-loving, retarded at times, damn high self
and yo, you're just cool dude. haha

things are getting way too hectic for me at the moment
im involved in OGLs, Danceworks (wooots!), iBCS tv, touch rugby together with all the other assignments and tutorials that the lecturers burden us with
on top of that
im a tutor now. (yay!!)
teaching my cousin and her 2 friends Principle of Accounts
they're taking their O levels this year
suppose to be a piece of cake right?
i mean accounts is one of my forte after all.
but i threw my file away
along with all the worksheets and questions ive ever done
in the span of 2 years learning POA in Swiss
*dumb nas*
today was our first ever session
travelled all the way to Changi Airport
had Dance practice from 8-11
so i was quite tired by the time i reached changi
then started teaching them for 3 hours
started with Bad Debts and Depreciation
so confusing!!!
accounts is not taught the same way
different teachers have different methods
so i had to adapt to their current teacher's method of answer
which was totally diff from Ms Ng's method.
*headache*
but i ain't complaining
cause by the end of the month.... *ka-ching*

haha
ooh i took a pic of a housefly
damn cute.

2007-02-17T19:24:00.000+08:00

there's no school till Tuesday
soo many things i wanna do!
gotta take advantage of Chinese New Year holidays
so im gonna make a list
of all the things i intend to do
i just hope i follow the list

My Holiday List

[ X] wash all clothes (inc. socks, uniforms, jeans, shirts, unmetionables, and SHOES)
[ X ] tidy up wardrobe
[ ] reorganise file system
[ ] mention new shelves to daddy again
[ ] reorganise filing system in mp4
[ X ] get new songs into mp4
[ ] buy more ankle socks
[ ] buy facial wash before current one finishes
[ X] get songs that's used for Danceworks
[ ] learn Touch Rugby rules and regulations
[ ] practice answering Econs questions
[ ] start my GP resource file
[ ] and also my Vocab notebook
[ ] finish up assignments from Maths
[ ] read through Geog lectures and understand them
[ ] start my list of known authors for Literature
[ ] return my library books before due date

*important! do immediately
*just make sure you do it before end of holidays
*dont forget to do them

2007-02-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

oooooh!!!
hehe.
i wanna wish happy belated valentine's day to
KAK MIRA, ZUL, PIKA
AND WHOEVER ELSE I KEEP IN CLOSE CONTACT WITH.
haha im so sorry i didnt include you guys in my entry.
but at least you know that i love you guys
and you play a significant part in my life (:

i miss my girlfriends. ):

its incredible that we go to the same school and yet spend so little time together!!! baaah...

ezah!! my pikuchi!!! my little darling who can pinch very well. -.-
hahaha i know you're bored at home right now
see lah. who ask you withdraw from MI so fast? nyeehhehe
im praying that you'll get accepted at IJC girlfriend! (:

naaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzz!!! hahaha work so hard. *sigh* see now you got BLACK EYES. worse than pandas. at least they look cute. hehe. KIDDING!!! (:
oh i think i look damn cool by the way.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR

to all my chinese friends!! (:

some of my classamates left school already
so fast right? *sigh*
i miss noraidah already. never fails to smile
and her eyes get damn small when she laughs. hahha
nadiah! the quiet quiet one.
and long hair!! wah her hair is long. and nice! *jealous*

but! i can say goodbye to Gerald.
i cannot believe you could backstab Charles just like that
you scrawny, good-for-nothing,
complain a lot, liar, bastard.

charles treated you soo nice. and there you go stabbing him in the back

you ass.

i think you're desperate for a girl, and desperate for a friend.
it really is sad that when you finally have one
you go stabbing him in the back.
you stupid idiot.

right. now that's off my chest, i feel better. (:
we had our first touch rugby match today
against MI girls. waaah!
so coooool!!
and to think i only had ONE training.
dont know the rules, dont know the moves, dont know the positions.
but i got super high watching by the sidelines
so i got to play during one quater of the match
sooo fun! hahha
and we won. (:

ooh just found some pics from the class

that was us wrapping cookies in the canteen
from left: Haziqah, Nadiah, Me, Noraidah, Halimah, Jo and Marissa

jo thinks she looks smart just cause she wears specs.
PFFT

that's the class clown together with our class treasurer.

Jo. Me. Charles.

spasticality. haha

2007-02-14T17:37:00.000+08:00

i need a break
thank god for Chinese New Year (:

alright.
i wanna update about i@fun before i talk about my O's results
okie i might be swearing a bit
but you cant hold it against me
cause the weather was damn harsh
it was fucking hot. no other word for it
im sorry but its true
thank you Sun for pouring us with imense heat
i was practically cooked
and you know for me particularly
i dont get tanned. i get sunburned, badly.
so i became soo soo soo burned
when i touched my forehead
i thought i was having a fever
it was such a tiring day
the only good part of it
was having my friends around me
meeting old friends
and yes yes
SHAN WEE people.
SHAN WEE came to Innova
to be a judge for our Supernova competition
and bloody shit
he's soo damn tall
and sooo bloody HOT. (:
i took a picture with him. muahahahahhaahaha
oh Faris and Diana came too!
they look so damn sweet together
but as usual
Faris was being an Ass. hehe (:

our stall. (its the one that says SPLAT!)

our class bugis trip

Joelle Tyea Enver

our class Fund Raising

oh and Faezah and Nazurah came to i@fun too! hehe

O Level Results
i scored 13 for my L1R5
i cannot believe it
how in the world did Kak Mira predict correctly ( i love you kak mira!!!)
i never expected it
i passed everything! hehe
even a maths and most importantly PHYSICS!!!
kudos to Mr Lim for doing the impossible
i have to say the teachers at Swiss are like the best i could ever ask for
its only because of them i did so well
i got A1 for combined humans!!! haha
the only disappointment would be my English and POA
i was hoping for A1 for both
but i only had A2s.
so Miss Tan came up to me and asked me what happened.
talk about rubbing salt into my wound.

i just registered today
practically the last day
i kept postponing doing it
cause i was in such agony
thinking about whether i should put CJC as my first choice
ive been having nightmares because of it =/
well in the end
i entered IJC as my first choice
such a burden off my shoulders
i suddenly feel lighter
haha
hope i get it
(:

ooh its Valentine's Day today
i wanna wish my family first of all
cause even though i wish i could kill them sometimes
i love them to bits. (:

Nazurah, Khairin, Faezah.
nobody can ever replace you guys.
i love you so much.

Hafizah
girl!! we've been friends since we were 10! haha
i love you forever!!

Xavier PEH!
hahaha omg i cant believe we're still so close.
happy valentine's buddy. (;

Paula, Hariz, Erlinna, Alysia, Fairuz, Ismail and all the others from 2E4
happy valentine's guys!

and 4E3!!! omg.
i'll always keep those precious memories with me
we've been through a lot
i'll miss you guys so much.

and my newfound friends from Innova!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
haha love love. (:

ooh Adil gave me paper roses
so sweeet!!!
(:

2007-02-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

not much to update today
oh wait. too much to update to be honest
soo i shall just update (or rather let the pics do the talking)
about my last trip to Kak Kim's house
to see my beloved angels

ilhan!

aunty wawa!

its not easy trying to take a picture with 2 boys on my lap
and still holding on to another one at my feet

aah that's better (:

irwin felt game enough to take pics with me

on one condition: he gets to flash his Spiderman Wallet.

hurhur

ilhan see ilhan do

yep i totally see the relation. (:

on another note
results are confirmed to be released on friday
im not ready to physically see him yet
i mean come on!
even seeing his account on msn gives me jolts in the stomach
and my heart starts aching
what happens when i see the real thing? =/

i do however get to see my mates

i miss you guys to death!!!!
*muah muah* see you sooooon!

2007-02-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

school was okie today
felt stoned in lectures and tutorials
i now realise how boring my Malay tutorials are
and how sucky my Malay language has become
i have done Cikgu Zelda injustice. *sigh*
after 2 exercises, i still have not passed one of them
like what the heck is wrong with me?
is my malay that bad? i cant even pass
feel so dumb in class.
all i do is colour my sketchpad

on a happier note
my classmates rock. they're the funniest bunch ive ever seen
too bad i havent got a pic of the whole lot
but during civics lesson
Gerald brought his laptop along
and they viewed Borat in class
i was watching part of it
till they showed a man's ............
i freaked out and started wailing
complete trauma.
damn it damn it damn it.

so got a bit bored
then started 'doodling' again
did a flower

me: hey jo you see i draw nice right?
jo: where got? so ugly. you wanna see MY flower?
me: *pause to look at jo* BUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHAA
jo: -.-

then during literature
we were discussing about an unseen poem

Ms Nathan: so what do you think the animal the poem is refering to?
someone in class: a peacock!
Ms Nathan: right! and its because their feathers are green. what colour is the peahen?
me: what the heck is a peahen?
jo: the female lah.
me: really? oh then if the male is called a peacock, why not call the female peaflower?
jo: ....................
ms nathan: what colour are the feathers for the peahen?
someone: brown
ms nathan: yes. so the peacock is handsome. very beautiful. but the peahen is very ugly.
me: why so sexist??
jo: you not happy go complain to the Peacock Government lah!
me: WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHHAHAHHAHA

so after school
Charles joined us all
we were all sitting together
Charles was watching Borat
i tried not to look but Charles kept laughing to himself
then all the sudden he burst out laughing
till his ears went red
so i had to see what was going on
apparently Borat offered an official some cheese
the guy actually said 'its good'
then Borat went on saying that it was made from the milk of his wife's ****
(HAHAHAHHHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA)
okie i've never laughed soo hard for such a long time

okie so here's Joelle (jo)

oh and here's Glenn
our class very own Care Bear

but cant beat my HUGE teddy bear!!

damn cuddly!!

hahaha oh here's the cake my class bought for me (:

2007-01-30T18:25:00.000+08:00

Band Dinner 2006

so late right the update? haha
sorry lah. only recently got a hold on the pics
basically band dinner was okie i guess
but it wasnt as grand as i had anticipated
still. no complaints. (:
the only MAJOR disappointment was that i didnt get to sing. ):

haha PICCIES!

My Bandsmen

WANIWANI!!!

my dearest Sakinah

Gan Zhi Yuan (:

my favourite Ah Beng. haha

Suffian!

PAULA BABE ;)

2006 batch of seniors

My Juniors

Aaron. Hunk of the Band. I still think he's Hunkalicious!

sec 1 junior! haha already hunk of the night

French Horn Section

Jasmine darling. (:

fantastic 4our

okie all the seniors are standing. who's the hottest? (ehem!)

Combo Band <3

Mr Mazri! my personal vocal couch. such a teddy bear (:

Mathi!

Roy (:

Daniel. Swiss's very own Michael Buble

The Vocalists aka Sexay Ladies ((:

LOVE YOU GUYS (:

2007-01-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ISMAIL!!!
though i havent got you a present
ive dedicated an entire post just for you
(waaaaaaaaah)

Alright. I know you wanna go to poly
so wanna wish you good luck with your results
hope you get the course you want! (:
stay colourful, optimistic, funky, high
and not to mention your cheekiness
though it does get on my nerves
and got you into trouble at times
its what makes you, you
haha so stay healthy and may we always be in touch
(:

2007-01-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

yay!
i have the pics!!!!
wooopie!

alright. so that day after eating with the class
i rushed off home to shower and change
we decided to celebrate my birthday at Causeway Point
cause me and Khairin were like already dead beat after cross country
so then i met up with Ezah at the front of Burger King
she told me the other 2 were already waiting for me at Swensens
i was like, really? why never tell me? something fishy... haha

so met with Naz and Khairin at swensen
Naz look so refreshing in green. no black. yay!
so we ordered our main dishes
me and naz ordered chicken cutlet
while khairin and ezah had fish & chips
was already darn full

then the guys presented me with my prezzies
i was practically jumping up and down
because i saw a HUGE teddy bear!
haha AND! Hady Mirza and Taufik Batisah's CD
with posters! bliss.

then felt a bit 'cam-whore-y' so took a pic with khairin darl.

then ezah and naz felt jealous
cause they too wanted to take a pic with moi
nyehehee...

so while i was finishing my meal
all the sudden 3 of the crew members crept behind me
i turned and got such a shock that i dropped my fork. -.-

so sweeet! hahah the guys got me an ice-cream cake
i never had one before! and its cookies & cream
aaaah the gazillion amounts of calories entering me
but i didnt care. haha cause it was pure heaven. mmmmm mmmmm! (:

so thanked the guys again
and asked one of the crew to take a pic of all of us
happiness.

and just when i thought i was all over
we were given complimentary ice-cream. weeee!

after everything [we ate a LOT]
we headed towards the arcade on the top floor
its been a while since ive been there
mostly i just play the hoops and air hockey
but that day
me naz and ezah had a try on the cars and guns
damn shiok. haha
turns out im quite a racer. hurhur
and we played Jurassic Park till we finished the entire mission
the darn dinos come out of nowhere
and the 3 of us kept screaming
eh actually just me lah. haha

then played basketball with them
naz damn pro. she actually achieved 65. 65?? bloody heck.
the highest i got was 49. -.-
oh other than the time i got 81. but that was a technical fault. (:
then played air hockey. i won!! muahahaha.
oh and then me and ezah tried the drum machine
i wondered why the thing damn easy
then khairin saw they printed there 'for small kids'
like what the fish. waste money. hahaha

wanna see a SPASTIC picture of me?

WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!

i love my friends. (:

2007-01-26T18:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAKINAH!
(:

im 17!!
im seventeen!
I AM SEVENTEEN!
so cool lah. haha
this is why i love my friends so damn much
only they know how to make me smile
not forgeting my wonderful family
haha though my lil sis did forget. -.-

the pictures are with nazurah
so i'll update about my outing with the turtles when i have it

Innova had cross country on my birthday
early in the morning met with khairin
then bumped into Gerald
so we headed towards Bishan; our meeting point
finally reached there
and we saw Charles, Jo and Glenn
and they shouted happy birthday right there
made me jumped. haha feels good laughing in the morning (:
Charles and Glenn got me a box of chocolates
so sweet right??? haha
thank you!!

so then we reached McRitchie
can you believe it, i actually finished the route under 25 mins
think 23 mins to be exact
hahaa felt very good
after which 0741C; my class
we headed to Adams Rd to eat
i was ordering my yong tau fu
feeling very awkward cause i just spilled my cup of ice at the stall
then all the sudden
my friends started singing me a birthday song
right there at the stall while i was ordering
everyone stared and i was blushing soooo bad
hahha
it was so sweet of them
Melissa and Daphne bought me a small cake
with 'magic' candles
they reignite themselves after i blow them out
hahaha
Anjelina gave me a neckalce
they're so so so sweet to me!!
thank you so much you guys
Gerald, Charles, Kendrick, Tian Qi, Halimah, Fairuz, Rusydia, Nadia, Marissa, Melissa, Daphne, Noraidah, Anjelina, Glenn and Wee Sin
you guys rock my darning socks!!!

2007-01-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know

i shouldn't love you but i want to
i just cant turn away
i shouldn't see you but i cant move
i cant look away
and i dont know
how to be fine when im not
cause i dont know
how to make a feeling stop

just so you know
this feeling's taken control of me
and i cant help it
i wont sit around i cant let him win now
thought you should know
ive tried my best to let go of you
but i dont want to
i just gotta say it all before i go
just so you know

its getting hard to be around you
there's so much i cant say
do you want me to have the feelings
and look the other way
and i dont know
how to be fine when im not
cause i dont know
how to make a feeling stop

just so you know
this feeling's taken control of me
and i cant help it
i wont sit around i cant let him win now
thought you should know
ive tried my best to let go of you
but i dont want to
just gotta say it all before i go
just so you know

this emptiness is killing me
and im wondering why i waited so long
looking back i realised
it was always there just never spoken
im waiting here
been waiting here

just so you know
this feeling's taken control of me
and i cant help it
i wont sit around i cant let him win now
thought you should know
ive tried my best to let go of you
but i dont want to
just gotta say it all before i go
just so you know

i think i have a crush on......................

JESSE MCCARTNEY!

i never liked him before
just thought he was a clone of Aaron Carter
but i like him now!! hahah
he's gone a bit chubbier which is GREAT!!
he looks soooo hot. yes! HOT. haha
go youtube and see this video people! (:

2007-01-22T19:27:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HEY!

oh my god. almost a month of not having internet
yet again my total dependance on technology is revealed
i wanna update about EVERYTHING
but i think my head will burst cause of all the excitement
in short. JC is amazing
the atmosphere, the people, the campus
everything was new
nobody had expectations of me
i could be anyone i wanted to be
didnt have to be 'the band geek'
or 'the singer' or 'the failure in maths'
everyone started from scratch and that was exactly what i wanted

to be able to start anew

orientation was so much fun
the best part i have to say is the dance
we didnt get to dance during grad night
and Innova had the Jam & Hop till like 10 at night
i boogied all night long
ahha
it was such an amzing experience
because never in my life have i done anything like that
im not clubber [duh]
but it was so much fun to the point of being addictive
which is why i signed up for Danceworks

YAY!!! heh. group name will be Carte Blanche
its gonna be in march
at Taka.
i expect it'll be an open stage area
coolness

i also joined iBCS
am gonna be a deejay. [Carrie wannabe]
can have my own morning show
how awesome is that?
only thing is i dont think many ppl will listen
cause everyone brings their own MP3s
haha
but! ppl in TAF can hear us
at least that's what Khairin said

lectures are okie. tutorials are manageable
the only subject i totally hate right now is Economics
stupid bloody shit subject
what the f shit.
stupid subject. *sigh* up till today
i cannot grasp the concept of opportunity cost
i understand that its 'the next best alternative'
but bloody shit you can ans it in so many ways!
monetary, time, quality..
like what bloody shit is that?
you'll be writing a thesis lah!
i do love Eng Lit. and Geog.
damn best. hahaha
the teachers are so bloody funny
and so fun

PE is... hah.
run 8 rounds around the track. *pants*
and this pe guy who thinks he's good-looking;
wearing tight tight shirts. aiyoh.
please lah.. we have the hockey boys for that
haha

i miss my turtle like shit =(
i wanna go out with them....
but we're going out on wednesday
hoooorraaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
can vent all my 'misses' out on them
(:

so that day finally fulfilled my promise to xavier
treated him to lunch
crazy toot. thought we decided on Long John.
at last i treated him to Swensens. -.-
hahaha
but it was fun
i missed hanging out with him
and Shawn was there too
6B gathering!!! [only 3 ppl. rubbish]
hahaha but it was still fun. ((:
wanna do it again!

piccies!

//wondering how you are
afraid to face you on the day//

2007-01-02T12:16:00.000+08:00

i love this song

anyways
sentosa was fun
really!
got my mind off things
for a while
but seeing faezah and khairil together
was a bit difficult for me
[sorry dear ezah.]
but ah well
with ismail taufik nazurah afiq fairuz and ahmad
it was really a day i got my mind off my depression
and for the first time in a long time
i laughed my head off

sentosa wasn't as crowded as i thought it would be
probably because we went to pahlawan beach
i wanted to go siloso!
cause its bigger
but the boys didnt wanna go
so i had to content myself with it
played in the water for a bit
then me and naz kept playing with the sand
then we played touch rugby
which afiq heard as 'tashrashbish'
and faezah thought he was talking about an Arab game
[see why i kept laughing me head off?]
then a few nice malay ladies nearby
gave us some food cause they had to go home
and didnt wanna throw away the food
so we had a plate of fried chicken, sandwiches, fishballs and a bottle of iced lemon tea
then ismail wanted to be burried in sand
then me and naz started digging a hole in the sand
it went really deep. hahaha

anyways here are some pics
and also pics from the class chalet
i just realised i havent posted them

oh and i wanna say sorry to Sarah and Xavier.
im such an idiot i know.
im so sorry i forgot our plans. forgive me!!!!! =X

2007-01-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

what do you do
when every morning
the moment you open your eyes
you suddenly have this sudden rush
and a sinking feeling starts
and it goes on the entire day
it only stops when you fall asleep
what do you do
when food no longer brings joy
you turn away from chocolates, even
what happens
when all the things that used to make you happy
no longer has its effect on you
what happens
when all you can think of
may not exactly be him
but of your heartache?
the pain, the regret and the hurt
of the fact that it really is over

the only reason i asked for it
was because i thought that was what you wanted

gg sentosa tmrw
sch starts on wednesday
good
get my mind off things

2006-12-26T15:45:00.000+08:00

never look back, we said
how was i to know i'd miss you so?
loneliness up ahead
emptiness behind
where do i go?
but you didn't hear
all my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears
did you know?
still i miss you somehow

from the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two i'd like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses
to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even though time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
i never knew love
till there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart

baby, i said, please stay
give our love a chance for one more day
we could have worked things out
taking time is what love's all about
but you put a dart
through my dreams through my heart
and im back where i started again
never thought it would end

from the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two i'd like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses
to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even though time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
i never knew love
till there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart

you promised yourself
but to somebody else
and you made it so perfectly clear
still i wish you were here

from the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two i'd like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses
to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even though time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
i never knew love
till there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart

never look back, we said
how was i to know
i'd miss you so

2006-12-13T15:39:00.000+08:00

the company is moving office
so i got the rest of the week off [i think]
till they call me back
i hope its not on friday
cause i have plans. nyehehehe

anypoos
believe it or not
i just returned from shopping, alone.
i know what you must be thinking
retarded right.
that's what i thought too
haha but it was okie lah
went JP. since my mp3 has been trashed
dont know by who
though the last person who used it was my sister [hais]
i had a book to keep me company
titled 'This Side of Married'
another version of Jane Austin's Pride and Prejudiced
only that its set in the modern time of today
kinda interesting

damn i should have visited the library
have decided to keep my mind working
since my job does not allow me such privilege.
i could literally feel my brain working slower
like what the fish?
and its not really my fault
imagine having to work from 10 - 6
and all you ever do is dial numbers
ask the same questions and get mostly the same answers
its mind numbing
i got so fed up that on monday
i visited the library straight after work
had to pay my fines.
wait. they weren't mine
they were my brother's
but its okie. i just had to borrow books
i need something to stimulate me mentally
so yeah i borrowed 8 books
and was done with the first one
titled '48 Shades of Brown'
which was okie
so Nazurah borrowed it to have a read

so since i was at JP
i went to some stored to look for clothes
Christmas time is coming
i dont know about you
but i kind of like when Christmas time is coming
and its not because i believe in the religious part behind the festivities
but somehow it seems to me
that when its Christmas time
everyone seems to be nicer somehow
more polite, more generous
i saw streams of parents coming out of Toys R Us
i just had to go in and have a look
and the first thing i saw was my favourite toy of all
TEDDY BEARS!!!!
they're so adorable!!!
wished i was 5 years old again
because when you're 5
you're still young enough to beg your parents for presents
or at least that's what happens in my household
and i saw Winnie! so cute!!
but i had to control myself and not buy anything though
but it was nice to see the kids running around
screaming for joy
and parents happily trailing behind
hoping against hope that their kids wont be asking for anything above their budget
haha

went to visit my sister yesterday after work
ever since i started working
i havent been to her house
and neither have they come here
Nawwarah has been sleeping over since erm the start of hols
and though i hate to admit it
i do miss her a little
even though my room has been spotless ever since her disappearance
so after work went to sembawang
felt like buying my nephews something to eat
they love those Pocky sticks
so i went to 7-11 to get them
bought 2 chocolate and 2 strawberries
the woman at the counter looked at me awkwardly
after she scanned she told me 'ah this one no offer ah'
and i said 'yeah i know'
then i found out that the total was $6.60
i was like. hmmm.. okie.
didnt think much of it at first
cause i was kinda excited to see the boys
but after i told my sister how much it cost me
she laughed her butt off at my stupidity
'7-11 very expensive tau naseha. why never go NTUC?'
'ya eh. why i never go? hais. nvm. its not everyday i get to buy them stuff'
haha
so then i had dinner there
and i talked to my sis
told her about her long ago promise to buy me jeans
and she said she'll get them
at FOX
yeah man! hahaha
she told me to consider them my birthday present for this year and next
[which happens to be a month away people!!! EHEM]
oh and there's also a catch lah
i have to chip in about $10 to $15 into it
ah well.
haha

aite. i wanna go back to reading my book
till my next pay check! hahah

2006-12-09T10:44:00.000+08:00

meet my best friend since primary 4
Hafizah

the most honest person i ever knew
dependable
smart, very smart
witty
funny
adorable
trustworthy
and yes. my best friend
bumped into her on my way home from work
soo much to say.
sooo little time
but i promise fizah!
we're gonna catch up. *muah muah*

2006-12-09T09:51:00.000+08:00

okie first things first
gonna reply your tags. heheh

taufik:dont angry lah dude. haha i tag you already. smile! (:
ezah:danity kane? sedap tak? i have to see if the web have anot lei. haha kk will do it. oh and darling. yes that last part was meant for you. so dont feel paisey. *hugs*
kak mira:haha i know you are. hehe thanks kak mira! come online lei! i wanna talk to you
laveen:aaah sucks i tell you. but its fine. at least i get money. haha

okie back to my entry.
my mom woke me up this morning at 7
apparently she just wanted to chat
ask me about my work and yeah.. all that jazz
but i was half asleep
in half an hour
i was fully awake already talking to her
i had to pay her back 20 bucks
cause she helped me with the transport fees for the first week
since i have my pay now. gotta give her some. haha
dont mind. its not everyday i get to give my mom money. haha
so my mom talked about my work. then about my sister's work.
then she told me about her plans to open up a business online
she has great ideas
its true. she's the creative one
which might explain where my sister got her creative flare from
but we just dont have the means to do it. ah well

so after that i went to shower
and headed off to the bank
cause i wanted to cash in my pay and also apply for atm card.
its been, i think, almost 4 years since i last step into the bank
they renovated it already
the place looks so pretty! hahah
and thank god i came early, thanks to mom
the line wasnt that long
so i applied for the card and got it
and all the sudden i felt 5 years older
lol

so went back home
and my uncle came
he bought breakfast
roti prata
listened to him talking to my mom about work
i forgot which industry is he in
but i think it has something to do with ships
so anyways
he told my mom about a very difficult and bloody rude customer of his
i listened and recalled about mrstay
gosh. i really wonder how people can be so rude
seriously.
is it that hard to talk nicely to someone?
like what is your problem dude?

guess the world aint perfect.

today gonna go out with darling
aaah after a whole week of not being able to
im so excited
gonna watch a movie
then i wanna go to the Lime Sonic Bang flea market
never been to a flea market before
its always my sister going
so it'll be my first time
hope i'll get to see some nice stuff and it isnt too ex
oh and yeah
hope the Idols will be there
by which i mean HADY. (:
and maybe electrico
i love their songs. heh

2006-12-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

alright.
if anyone has any suggestion of a song
please tell me.

its thursday
have you any idea how disconnected i feel from the world?
and to think adults do this FULL TIME
its amazing
i have a renewed sense of respect for my daddy now.
its seriously tiring
now i know why adults wish they were in school
but hey. good news.
im getting my pay tmrw
muahahahahhaha!
im gonna enjoy myself in the weekends
dont care already. i need to feel like a teenager again.

still.
just because i work doesnt mean ive no idea what's been happening around me the past few days.
ive always been a strong believer in the phrase 'things happen for a reason'
oh also 'people change' and yes the old mundane one 'do onto others what you want them to do onto you'
that particular phrase right.
its quite debatable
sure. you can be nice to someone.
but it doesnt necessarily guarantee the other person being nice to you
my colleague told me as that as a telemarketer
you need to be polite and talk nicely to the person on the line
its part of the job
if they are rude to you
just speak nicely and just hang up the phone
but dont be nasty to them. if you do. it means they win.
i just listened and nodded my head
thinking 'yeah okie then'
not more than 5 mins later
i will always remember this name
i had to call a MrsTay.
owns a property at The Plaza.
i dont even know where that is
and actually. i dont care
so i asked the same thing i ask everyone else
"Good afternoon MryTay. Im Naseha. Im calling regarding your property at the Plaza. May I know is it still available?"
"who are you ah?"
"oh im Naseha. Calling from Bernard Valuers & Real Estate Consultants"
"where you get my number ah?"
"oh well im doing a listing you see for my manager."
"so you got my number from your management is it?"
"yes MrsTay [getting annoyed]"
"eh im going to complain to the management already ah. why they give you my number? they should not disclose numbers to PEOPLE LIKE YOU!"

that was it
after 3 1/2 days of working
i finally got insulted.
i just hung up the phone. and looked down
couldnt think. was sooo scared
i didnt dare call anyone else who owned properties at The Plaza
kept thinking they might all be related to that horid woman
i wanted to talk to someone
but the only person i felt comfortable talking to was Robin
but he was out for a viewing
so i called dear
felt like crying when he picked up.
finally did when i told him what happened.
he couldnt do anything much
cause he wasnt there with me
so he just let me cry till i calmed down
think the bangglas who saw me thought i must be crazy
but thankfully i did
and i went back into the office
for a while i just stared at the phone
my confidence evaporated completely because of that woman
took me a while to get back on track

there are some good people
i remembered one caller today
Micheal
called him and he sounded alright
found out that he was a small developer
has LOADS of properties
but then all the sudden he told me
he just got back from US
he spent more than 20K on his wife, children and relarives
then before i could get a relevant ans out of him
he went on asking ME questions
asked me how old i was
told him i was 16. waiting for my Os results
working part time
then he said oh really?
like that you work for me lah.
im a retiree you know
but i still have people working under me
as part time. they earn a lot. 4 figure
im like. WHAT? you're kidding.
haha he made me laugh. such a nice guy
lifeted my mood a bit

to my dearest turtle
i really hope you're fine
it hurts i know
but you have to admit that some of it is true
that's just it. words are strong weapons
i forgot how mr abdulla described it
but anyway
never underestimate the power of words
im too tired to type anymore
but trust me my darling
the 4 of us are gonna go out
then i can cheer you up properly.
love ya!!
eh. all the sudden i miss khairin ah. hahah

2006-12-04T21:36:00.000+08:00

WORK.

you know when i hear people complain about their work
how they hate it and how they're unhappy where they are
i used to think that they should just suck it up
take responsibility and do their job.
oh how WRONG i was.

i HATE my job.
hate it. hate it. hate it. HATE IT!
its boring, tiring, mindless and unsatisfying.
oh did i miss out the part where i HATE my job?

the only comfort i have is that i get paid for doing this crap
rich people are RUDE i tell you.
sometimes i feel like swearing at them
like what the hell is your problem?
im only asking if you're interested to rent out your place
you earn money you know or not idiot??
dont have to shout at me or hang up the phone.
PFFFT.
oh. and some who also cannot comprehend
that I DONT SPEAK MANDARIN.
tak paham eh? hello?? saya anak melayu!

baaaaah
i need a 2nd job
i swear im gonna go crazy
8 full hours of asking the same silly question
looking at phone numbers. dialling them. waiting for them to answer. having to talk to them nicely.
urgh.

okie so since it was my first day
of course i wanted to take pictures. hahah

okie so here's the name of the office
note. office. not company
i have no idea why
adults seem to like to complicate their life
-.-

so that's the lounge area
not as comfortable

my desk.
waaah.
my work desk. *ehem*

my new fish friends
i named it paul one hill,
paul three hill, paul four hill,
paul five hill, paul six hill
and paul seven hill. muahahaha

my friend Bug Eyes, the radio

made a lot of non-human friends
cause i was the super youngest there
everyone was more than twice my age
but they're nice people
damn funny. haha

all the sudden, i cant stand the sight of a black telephone
and all the sudden, warm milo is my best friend.

2006-12-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

so long since i last updated
guess its cause i feel so disoriented
being stuck at home sucks i tell you

well i got the pics form khairin's cam
hehehe and those from my own cam
so gonna post them

anyways
ive got a job lah
can you believe it?
neither can i
my mom thinks its a scam
oh im working as a telemarketer btw
haha
but here's the thing
i dont have to sell a thing
cause im working for a real estate company
so i cant sell a house over the phone can i?
they just want me to get information
from people who have private estates
waah. gonna talk to rich people. *ehem*

haha okie so yeah
piccies!

more friends!

evooooo!! hahaha

nicest guy i know; apart from darling of course
haha i remember miss wong played "angel and mortal" game with us in sec 3
he's my mortal lah!
oops! secret's out!

Jun Dat

combo band combo band combo band!!!

Mr Fairuz

Suffian. he only looks taller cause i wasnt standing straight. =D

Miss Tay Lai Ling
no comment.

Mr Lim!! hehee
my most favourite science teacher
actually. he's my ONLY science teacher

love love

my favourite. (:

sorry its blur
it was almost 12 when we took them
haha

2006-11-27T20:04:00.000+08:00

nobody cried on Graduation
everyone was all smiles and hugs and kisses
okie maybe not kisses
anyways
i was pumped on the morning of grad
was soo bloody excited haha
made my way to naz's house
i was the first one [as usual, heh]
waited for the others to come
then khairin came and i quickly sewed her button
finally ezah came and i quicly sewed her dress
all this was done while nazurah was curling my hair
woah. busy bees
so of course we were late
so decided to take a taxi
which khairin's bf kindly offered to pay for us

finally reached there and quickly looked for a toilet
met chin yun, michelle and xs
all looking pretty of course
so finally the class came
and we went up together
saw our collage being displayed
got some of our pics! hehehe
gosh i miss the classroom

graduation was okie i guess
Blue Shades performed! hehehe
took some pics with them
wonder where they are. hmmm
the food is incredible lah kay
i ADORED the black forest cake
oh my god. its sooooo yummy
i swear its the best chocolate cake i've ever eaten
didnt really feel hungry just yet
so i just took some cake
and loads of fresh fruits. haha

after the whole thing
took more and more pictures
ahhh im gonna miss the people
and the teachers of course hahah

after the tea me and dear went off
watched Flushed Away together
quite nice
then we wandered off and dear got hungry
so watched him eat [still wasnt hungry]
then we made our way to VivoCity
just stood at the railing and watched the view
so pretty!
took some pics with dear
time simply FLIES when you're having fun
sheesh
came home at 12.15
amazing right??
hehehhee

the class

my favourite group picture

the Studs

Classmates

Xiao Shi

Chin Yun

Benjamin

Ismail [he strongly reminded me of Taufik Batisah that night]

Mdm Zainab

Friends

Fairuz

Paula Yip! *muack muack*

Taufik [i love the angle at which the pic was taken. nice!]

awww. cute right? haha

Hariz

Turtles!!!

My Hunk <3

2006-11-25T12:30:00.000+08:00

this post won't be about graduation tea
due to the fact that i don't have all the pictures yet
most probably will get them by tmrw. (:

well anyways, my phone is filled with pictures
of my darling nephews of course
went over to my sister's house on thursday
cause my nephews were missing my little sister
so i accompanied Nawwarah to Sembawang
planned to stay there for a few hours
i ended up going home at 10
thank goodness i was in time to watch darling Wentworth
[lead actor in Prison Break in case you people don't notice]

i'm in dire need for a job
i've been stuck at home for the past 3 days
and im getting sick of it i tell you
i don't want to rot here
i wanna work!
please let me have a decent job
by which i mean no foodcourts, fast food restaurants etc.
no offence to anyone working there
but i'd rather work at a place like Starbucks or Coffeebean
surrounded by the aroma of rich coffee beans
as compared to greasy oil and soggy fries?
right. no brainer.

okie piccies!

yeap. i see the relation.

can you tell that this was taken from my phone?

okie i wanna post one pic from Grad. heh

<3

tmrw's my monthsery!! (:

2006-11-20T08:47:00.000+08:00

O Levels Examination
our 'big hurdle' is finally over
the big exam
the one exam that seconday school students toil for 4 years
the exam that i once believed, was so important
so very important to realising now
that there is so much more to life than studies,
its finally over
i feel a sense of freedom
feel lighter somehow (did i lose weight? oh please say yes!)
but then it dawn to me
what now?
work i guess
but im so afraid to go for interviews
i find it highly embarresing
overall
the only subjects that im really not confident in
are a maths and physics
i just dont want to see an F on my cert

VivoCity
i went to vivocity the last two days
first was with my girlfriends
and on sunday with my lovely guy
i dont know about the others
but i am superbly excited over graduation
its gonna be so much fun
and its these kind of events
where my mom wouldn't nag at me if i came home late
it is my graduation day after all
and i heard the day after grad is the band dinner
coolness
so on saturday
my girlfriends and i head off to harbourfront mrt station
its not that far actually
its just a stop after Outram Park which is 8 stops away from Jurong East which is 6 stops away from my Marsiling mrt station
haha
first we roamed the entire harbourfront centre
found a few dresses
price is cheap
but not really nice
after we finished over there
we headed on to VivoCity
omg that place is damn huge
i kept getting lost
we ate at Banquet first but i didnt finish my food
cause i was feeling a bit sick
then we roamed first 2 floors
so tiring
and we kept going in circles lah
hahaha
but since the place is new
a lot of people are promoting their stores
so while you walk around there
you see people in vibrant coloured costumes
dancing, smiling, shaking hands and promoting, basically
i thought it was cute
wanted to take a picture
but the rest were all shy
and i definitely won't take a pic alone
so i decided not to
haha
so then khairin had to go off for dinner with her family
me and faezah and nazurah went to Jurong Point
i practically brainwashed those two to get their dresses before the day ends
cause khairin already got hers
and i already planned to get mine the next day
so spent another 2 hours i think shopping
then they found the store
forgot the name
B.I.F.C i think
i felt like a mom for a while
haha
waiting in the fitting rooms
helping them zip up their dresses
and giving my opinions
it was so much fun
thank goodness the both of them purchased their dresses
people. look out for nazurah in a dress
she's gonna be a bomb! hehehe

VivoCity, 2nd day
so met my darling at CCK at around 11
we wanted to catch Step-Up at the 1245 slot
was pretty elated cause i missed him so much
and its been so long since we went on a proper date
when we finally arrived
quickly looked for the cineplex
of course we got lost
hahha
but we managed to find it all thanks to him
i paid for the tickets since it was my turn
so forced him to get the popcorn
silly dear wanted mix
salty popcorn is like my least favourite snack
its the first time i had to taste it
haha
but at least we still had sweet ones
while waiting for the movie to start
we started throwing popcorn at each other
the couples next to us were adults
think they must think we were lunatics
haha didnt care though. its fun. haha
the movie is GREAT
the guy's hot lah kay
when i first saw him in She's The Man
never knew he could even dance
but he's sooo hot lah can?
haha
so then darling came along with me to Red2
i tried on a white dress with black polka dots
so cute!!!!!
asked dear for his opinion
all he did was nod his head. -.-
also went looking for shoes
i decided on Charles & Keith
tried on a few
haha bought wedges again
but this time its white
hahaa
im gonna be wearing a lot of white stuff on graduation
i have white ear rings a white hair band and white shoes
should i get a white watch?
nah. too much already.

so after buying that
helped dear with his grad clothes
combed the entire first floor for his shirt and vest
oh my gosh sooo difficult
went to Gap, TopMan, Bossini, Esprit, i.p zone, G2000 and so many others
then while roaming the area again
those poeple in colourful costumes were nearby
the two guys were wearing the brightest yellow suits ive ever seen
its really cool
and they were on these scooters just driving around
and waving at people
hahaha
then they waved and smiled at me
and i naturally waved back
dear started saying they like me. silly goose.
then along the way bumped into ezah and her cousin
zul, afiqah, zul's mom and little brother as well
also bumped into dear's friends
actually no lah not bumped
they told us to wait and not move and they come to us
just to chat with dear a bit
haha
dear tried on a few shirts
i picked out his shirt! hehehe
from TopMan
he looks so adorable!
then we went on looking for his vest
finally found one at Bossini
after that we continued to shop
look for a tie
but ran out of time
cause i had to rush home
promised my mummy i'd be back early
didnt get to have dinner with dear
so he had to have dinner at home
because of that he couldnt send me home
cause his mummy was waiting for him already
was a bit sad
but dear surprised me by giving me a kiss before he went off
definitely cheered me up. (:

didnt take pics with dear at Vivo cause he was reluctant
but i did take pictures with my girlfrieds.
haha

the day the turtle went out together was the best day
its been a while since we went out as 4 girls
and NO guys.
its great. (:

something happened last night
and personally i dont think that its very fair to me
i was shoved into a very unjustly situation
i mean i was half asleep when i said yes
i love helping
i really do
its in my nature
but if its gonna affect a 4 year friendship with a very good friend
i'd rather not do it
but its too late
he's disappointed in me for what i did
i only wish i could turn back time
and do things differently
note-to-self: DONT GET SELF TOO INVOLVED WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S RELATIONSHIPS.
*sigh*

2006-11-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

a lot of things have been happening
besides the fact that we're having the little exam called
GCE 'O' LEVELS EXAMINATIONS
for starters
the first week of exam went surprisingly smooth
im not too confident of my essay though
i wouldnt say that it was my best
just hope its enough for an A1
emaths was fun. hahaha. strange. esp coming from someone like me.
geog was okie. it wasnt as tough as the prelims
the mapwork was like. huh?
no gradient qn. no vertical exxageration. -.-

so besides my academic adventures
im an aunt again! hahaha
its the 4th one btw. in case you've been keeping track.
his name is Iman. wahahaha!
born at 0047 on the 7th of november
which makes him a 7-11 baby!!! hahaha okie lame.
but anypoos

he's 2.9 kg
so it was easy for me to carry around
haha
spent about 4 hours with kak kim at the hospital
with so many babies around
i wonder how mine would look like. hmmmmm....

so then i looked thru my sis's phone
and she had pics of her sons
so i stole a few. heh

irwin

ilhan

irfan

and iman! hahaha

so we went to jurong library just now
after studying
we took pics
oh and for some reason
a LOT of us we wearing black. hahhaa

my lovely angels (:

khairin just rebonded her hair. hmm i wanna rebond mine again!!!

faezah got a new phone. damn nice!
sheesh. *pouts*
but it takes nice pics. hahaha
i'll get more pics from her
oh wait. one more picture.

*muah muah* ((:

2006-11-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

aah yes i am having a writer's block at the moment
hmmm

wai kit came over for a bit just now
he wanted to photocopy my environment notes
I LOST MY ENVIRONMENT NOTES!!!
as in the one that i compressed everything in
damn damn damn!!!
i worked hard on that piece. hais
so anyways
dear came along with wai kit
just to see me
hehehe
they were all having chemistry remedial
sucks that mr lim didnt schedule for physics as well
im slacking off!!

anypoooooo
still no word of the pictures
sheesh. hahaha
but i found one in my phone. heh

right even if you people dont want to admit it
i shall
hehehehehe
im the cutest lah can? haha
loved my hair that day
it looked good in pictures

so anyways
was quite bored just now
so i stole my neighbour's baby
Akil. cute as a button.
took a pic of him with the elder brother Daniel
that Daniel has grown up
i remembered babysitting him 5 years ago
and now he can actually form complete and accurate sentences while talking to me
damn im getting old.

look at Akil's eye! hahaha
so huge and round
cutie!

speaking of cuties
Prison Break!!!
aaah yes!
wentworth miller (dream boat!!!)
damn sexy!
oh gosh if he looks at me with those gorgeous eyes of his
i will melt right before him
hehe cant wait!
2 more hrs to go before the show starts
think i'll do a bit on geography.

2006-10-31T20:16:00.000+08:00

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pictures that i was able to get my hands on
heh
FAEZAH! KHAIRIN! who else? oh!
HARIZ!!!!!!!!!
pictures please :)

2006-10-28T10:11:00.000+08:00

kkk
i have to update about thursday
it was our O levels Physics Practical
i have got to be the most kuku person on earth (right afiqah?)
haha
the silly diagram drew arrows that pointed up and down
for the movement of our eyes
(it was an optics experiment you see, which happens to by my least favourite)
so i diligently moved up and down
only after the whole practical did i realise i was wrong
i was suppose to be looking left and right
the orientation of the diagram and what i actually had in front of me were different
so yes, i cursed under my breath.
but what can i do? it's already been done.
but at least i can take comfort in knowing that
my answer wasn't as different as the rest.

so after the whole thing
sweetie brought me out for a movie
it was our monthsery
(:
so i paid for our movie tickets
and he paid for the meals
we watched The Prestige
for those who are into character development and tremendous plot kinda movie
this is so the flick you should be rushing to
it was sooo amazing!
i cannot for the life of me understand why khairil slept during the movie.
silly goose.
hahahas

so sweetie brought me to delifrance
i've never eaten at delifrance
i mean i have eaten the stuff
chocolate croissant *smacks lips*
but never actually sitting in the place and eating an actual meal
sweetie ordered pasta and i ate lasagna
wow. very nice. hehehe
there was a lot of tomato sauce though
haha
and then the bill came
*kaching*
sweetie had to pay a lot for two meals
at least in my opinion
he paid 20 bucks for it all
felt kinda bad.

the trip home was kinda ruined
cause i suddenly had a massive headache
but its okie
cause sweetie was superbly sweet to me

so on friday
my mom finally allowed me to go raya with my friends
yays. hah
i quickly went down to the salon
and permed my hair
temporarily that is.
i loved the result
baaaaaah i wanna have a permenant perm! hmmm
we had sooooo much fun!
and took LOADS of pictures
hariz, faezah, khairin and whoever held a camera ystd
PASS ME THE PICTURES!!!!!!

i only had one pic from my phone. haha

presenting the dols
hahah

the last house i went to was Taufik's.
his house was really nice
the family hung pictures of the children like everywhere
hahaha
and they all recently went for a photoshoot
and yes taufik. you look H.
jangan kembang yer. hehe
eh. its not Hot by the way. hahaha

so anyways i had to go off early
cause my relatives were coming
they are my mom's mom's little sister's husband's little brother's family
geddit?
let's do that again
my mom's mom's little sister's husband's little brother's family.
and his name is also Ghani lah! hahah
just like my daddy
hahah
they're singaporeans
who used to reside in england, recently brunei and currently in KL now
our families are quite close even though we are such distant relatives
i suspect it has something to do with the head of the house having the same name
that's why i had to come back home and see them
so yeah
they came here at 9.30
and went home at 1 in the morning
waaaaaaah. fun rite? haha
the kids (as in us) cam-whored the whole night. hehehe
i planned to call dear after everything
but he already slept. sorry sweetie.

so yes we didnt cam-whored with my phone.
but i did manage to get one picture. heh

aah yes
that's shazni
he's 20, the eldest
if you look carefully there's 3 other people in the pic
hahaha
that'll be nawwarah, kak bella and latifah, shazni's sister
shazni and latifah
i want the pictures!!!!!!

hehe (:

2006-10-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

i thank god for bringing you into my life
for making me smile when all i wanna do
is sit and cry
i felt like i didnt have to pretend with you
i didnt have to put up a front
that i could be just... me
and you seemed okie with 'me'
in fact you fell for 'me'
and i marveled at how you much you would go out of your way
just to show me how much you care
and to show how im always on your mind
and as someone who hasn't felt 'loved' for a very long time
you were my miracle

why the sudden change?
when i used to feel like i was always on your mind
i now feel like im been shoved to the back
now im like some kind of 'duty' to you
some form of 'responsibility'
its like you feel obliged to me
know what's the problem with that?
it makes one do stuff for someone
for the sake of doing it but not because they want to
it doesnt come from the heart.
and what is the point of that?
i really hope this is all happening because of O's
which is why i have decided
to just let it be and see what happens after the O's
because honestly
at this moment in time
i do not feel loved anymore.

funny.
how can you prove it
when you dont even say it anymore?

2006-10-16T18:35:00.000+08:00

that's my lovely big sister
she's the quirkiest person i know
*hugs*

***************************************************************

i learned that when you love someone
you should treat them the way you feel;
because sometimes, saying it
isn't enough*

i'm scared because
i don't want anyone else
to have your heart <3

when you love someone,
everything about them seems adorable
so true

i want to be the seashells you find
washed along the tide;
beautiful, flawless
and special in your eyes

the best smell in the world is that man that you love
[[Jennifer Aniston]]

let's be a Kodak couple & smile in all pictures
look silly when we take them & laugh all day
until we run out of film

"there are just some people you'll never get over"
= The Hills

actually, no, i am not okay.
i need you to give me a big hug.
i need to be told that i am worth something.

the feeling of losing yourself
in somebody's arms- yet at the same time
finding yourself there- is irreplaceable.
nothing compares to the intensity of that feeling

one smile from him makes my..
6 am wake up
cold shower
nothing to wear
no hairspray left
missed the bus
late for class
...whole day worth while.. <3

i want to be someone's last call of the night
& their first thought in the morning.
i want those 5 hour conversations that end in
"no.. you hangup first".
i want the heart racing, palm sweaty,
"what's gonna happen next" moments.
i want the hugs that you never want to let go of
& the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest.
but most importantly, i just want to know
someone considers me theirs.

count by twos
& when you get to five;;
that's when i'll stop loving you

&& the only guy who deserves you..
is the one who thinks he doesn't

GIRL FACTS
>> when a girl is quiet,
**millions of things are running through her head
>> when a girl is not arguing,
**she is thinking deeply
>> when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
**she's wondering how long you'll be around
>> when a girl answers "im fine" after a few seconds,
**she is not at all "fine"
>> when a girl stares at you,
**she is wondering why you're lying
>> when a girl lays on your chest,
**she's wishing you'll be hers forever
>> when a girl calls you everyday,
**she is seeking your attention
>> when a girl wants to see you everyday,
**she wants to be pampered
>> when a girl says "i love you",
**she means it more than anything else
>> when a girl says that she can't live without you,
**she has made up her mind that you are her future
>> and when a girl says "i miss you",
**no one in this world can miss you more than that.

frustrated cause i can't tell if its real
mad cause i dont know how you feel
upset cause we cant make it right
sad cauce i need you day and night
angry cause you wont take my hand
aggrivated cause you dont understand
depressed cause i thought we'd never part
sorrowful cause you broke my heart
disappointed cause we cant be together
miserable cause i wanna be with you forever

i can be in a room with 100000000 guys
you'll still be the only one in my mind

i keep thinking of how much i love talking to you..
how good you look when you smile,
how much i love your laugh
i day-dream about you off and on,
replaying pieces of our conversation;
laughing at funny things you say or did..
i've memorised your face && the way you look at me..
i catch myself smiling again at what i imagine..
i wonder what'll happen the next time we're together
&& even though neither of us know what the future holds,
i know one thing for sure;
you're the best thing that ever happened to me..

SIGNS THAT YOU LOVE HIM
- you stare at him a lot.
- he always makes you laugh.
- you can tell him anything.
- you always seem to find yoursef
thinking about him
- when he's anywhere near you,
you have to be with him.
- you go crazy over every little thing
he does or says
- whenever you're with him,
you cant help but smile.

SIGNS THAT HE LOVES YOU
- he stares back at you.
- he always has to me you laugh.
- you always seem to make him laugh too.
- whenever you're around, he's with you.
- he calls you every chance he gets.
- he touches you whenever he gets the chance,
even if its just a little touch.
- he picks you over his boys.

***************************************************************

there you have it
some quotes i find really nice
i'll update again tmrw.
toodles! (:

2006-10-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

oh wow
i cant believe i havent updated for so long
see why i cant wait for Os to be over?
i want my life back

so studies have been the same
i really hate the schedule
sucks lah. two lessons a day
they're really driving me nuts!
and these days during maths lessons
i sometimes have the urge to just go to a wall
and wham my head against the concrete
mrs heng keeps talking about how good swiss pupils are at maths
damn it. i'll never make it
and you know what
maybe im not JC material
whatever it is
im thankful that the school allowed me
to at least enter a jc for the first 3 months
i need to get a taste of life there
or else
i'll just pop my way over to poly
there's 3 choices
Singapore, Ngee Ann and Temasek
hmmm
but if i were to go to a JC
i'd very much like to go Innova
yeap

had a tiff with dear yesterday
guess its both our faults
i mean. i didnt think it was wrong of me to feel angry
but i have been patient the whole morning
but maybe it was wrong of me to over-react.
whatever it is
im glad its over
cause i had a nightmare when i finally went to sleep
and how bloody disturbing that certain people were there
not people who i expected actually
it was another couple with me and dear in the dream
except we changed partners
not what i have in mind definitely
hais.
is it me or is the stress of O levels finally getting to me?
i need coffee

7 random things about me

1. i do my homework lying on my bed
2. i absolutely hate veggies. havent eaten it for the last 12 years
3. to make up for not eating veggies. i eat LOADS of fruits. heh
4. i like doing my own laundry
5. i bite my nails when im nervous or anxious
6. i cannot cook
7. i can however clean. VERY well.

7 random songs at da moment...

1. Plus One: Here In My Heart
2. Natalie: Love You So
3. Chemical Romance: Welcome to the Black Parade
4. Nelly Furtado: Maneater
5. Justin Timberlake: Sexy Back
6. Pink: You and Your Head
7. Lifehouse: Blind

7 Things i like most..

1. my loved ones
2. my crazy friends, especially the turtles
3. my adoring boyfriend
4. CHOCOLATES!!!
5. my mp3
6. food! heh
7. watching chick flicks with my girlfriends

7 Things dat scare me..

1. pervertic assholes
2. paedophiles
3. my O leves
4. losing a family member
5. losing someone i love
6. rich people (not necessarilly scared, just intimidated)
7. not stop eating.

7 things i sae most..

1. are you serious?
2. oh shit!
3. what the fish?!
4. what the bleh!
5. no laaaah
6. u sure anot?
7. dang!

my sweet ilhan
he's the only one game enough for a pic

okie the reason its blur is cause that kid could not sit still!

i miss my darlings

oh by the way
im a huge fan on MTV shows like Laguna Beach and The Hills
yeap. oh. and im simply addicted to watching the E Channel
thank god for cable tv. heh
toodles!

2006-09-29T15:28:00.000+08:00

its friday!
prelims results?
well. its not good. definitely.
but!
i have to say. i did improve
all except for my damn combine humans
i really dont get it
i studied like shit for the papers
how in the blue world did i get a C5??
ah well
gotta change my strategy already
its obviously not working
im over the moon with my english results
finally after 2 years!
ive achieved my goal
A1! hehehe
both me and Sarah were the only A1s in class
im soo happpy!!!!
dont know where i'll be going for the 3 month thingy though
i hope i can go somewhere. doesnt really matter where
but still. even if i dont. can always work my butt off
and earn cash. weeee!

did i tell you how much i love 26?
hahaha
had so much fun that day
but as usual
i had to be a total idiot and not bring my ez-link
so we couldn't watch Miami Vice like he wanted
no choice. we watched John Tucker Must Die
ive watched it twice now
its soo funnny!! i love it!
even dear found it amusing. haha told ya!

i know im 4 days late in saying this. but
happy monthsery dear!!!
*muah muah*
i love you
and work harder for Os k?
im always behind you. *wink wink*

oh. and thanks for the necklace sweetie

2006-09-25T07:52:00.000+08:00

hady's personality's too bland?
little chance of winning?
one even said
he has unlimited vocabulary?
that's just downright rude
what an asshole!
im sorry to all johnny bravo fans out there
but i think we can both agree
that yesterday's final showdown
hady shined
i think he came out on top
i dont get it though
the judges didnt criticised him but hady
like how bloody unfair is that???
dick said he shan't say bad things about john in this kind of atmosphere
and when my poor baby came along, both him and ken criticised
like eff off lah you asses
urgh.
when john sang chasing cars
i only woke up during the last part
and he cant sing the new song!
its really not nice
and dick was right
it did feel kinda sad
but hady's version was just mind blowing
you peepz HAVE to agree with me on that
its true!
i'll vote for hady
if he wins or not, who knows
but the both of them will definitely come out with albums
i have a feeling hady's album will do better in the market
as compared to john's though
again
sorry to johnny fans out there
but you're reading hady's number 1 fan's blog
hehehe
aite. gtg school
physics practical!

2006-09-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

i havent been following smallville very much
but i just found out yesterday that Mr Kent died
im in shock.
he cant die!
he's the FATHER of the man of steel!
and then when Clark cried while watching the video
i silently shed a tear or two
*sigh* so sad. damn the writers for killing him
they should kill Lana instead
what is that woman still doing in the show???
isnt lois already in the show??
kill her already!

so there's two paper left
physics practical and a maths paper 2
i cannot wait for prelims to be over
im sick of sitting in that stupid hall
i want the classroom again
i wanna laugh at ben's lameness in class again
i wanna tease sarah again
hhahaha
aah i miss 4e3
(:

2006-09-17T09:59:00.000+08:00

aaah! yes!
i can finally hear my song and see my tagboard
weeee!

havent been online the past few days
cause i was sick of not being able to hear my song
nor see the tagboard
so ive been watching tv and reading dan brown books
have i studied? i'd like to say yes
but that will be a lie
however.
i did try.
its physics.
i SUCK at physics
hopeless. finito!
i can honestly say that i'll fail physics
amaths? lets not go there...

the emaths paper however was surprising
im a goner for paper 1
it was a nightmare
but paper 2 was relatively okie
i was quite surprised that i could do the questions
i just hope i get them right
i wanna pass!! for once in my sec sch life
let me pass my maths!

accounts was okie
but as usual, i spent too much time on the tpl question
didnt finish my journal
journal entries were difficult lah
actually not really.
i just forgot my double entries for bad debts
hais.
but i think it'll be fine. im praying for A2.

in times of distress like these
my only comforts are my nephews
and of course him. haha
i cannot wait for exams to be over
in fact i wish O level would come quickly
i need to taste freedom again
but that would also be a nightmare
because im so unprepared for the O's.
I STILL DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO!!!
jc? poly? aaaaaaahhhh!!!!

been quite a while since i post piccies
hehehe
k gtg. im hungry.

that's my crazy sister

my angels! ((:

i think itfan's the most cutest out of the three

do we look alike? ahhaha

irfan has angelina jolie's lips. haha!

2006-09-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday's papers were generally okie
i guess it was kinda balanced
maths paper was just a bummer for me
i sucked at it
im so sure im gonna fail it
hais

but! i think i redeemed myself with geog
i could not believe my luck
my question actually came out
my manufacturing qn!
i already did that qn and wrote my ans
and the exact qn came out for prelims!
damn how i wish it was the O level paper. haha
and thankfully
the tourism qn wasn't so bad
i hated the map wprk
i could not for the life of me
remember how to do vertical exageration
even the term sounds alarming enough
i hope i did well for my geog
*prays*

i borrowed 3 Dan Brown books from ee chow
his mom bought him the entire set
and he hasnt even finish the Da Vinci Code
can you believe that guy?
haha
im re-reading that book
after which im gonna read Angels & Demons
and Deception Point
i wish i had a bigger room
with a huge window
that's facing greenery
or a view
that would be my sanctuary
read all day long.
but you know what i got?
i noisy carpark
further worsened by a construction site
i think they're rebuilding the car park
so much for a view.

emaths paper 2 tmrw
can someone please kill me?

and why can't i hear my song
nor see my tagboard?
roooaaaar! haha

holidays are over
i didn't fulfill my list
i have not yet broken my stupid habit
i have not lose weight
i havent finish watching the movies
nor have i made my decision yet

but most important of all
i have not gained my self-confidence back
i realised it yesterday
when i start thinking too much
i babble
and i babble nonsense
which is not something many people like
but i cant help it
its just how i feel
though some people have got on with their lives
and beyond their past
mine keeps coming back
its scary, confusing, hurtful
and frustrating
not only to me. and i realised that ystd
can you blame me?
i know of sooo many other people out there
those who are smarter, sportier and more confident
add that
and the constant scrutiny at home
of forever feeling that i lack in something
that i'll never be good enough
that i dont deserve to be happy.

i have got to get a hold of myself
or i might very well lose it
and the nightmare i had before
might become a reality =/

2006-09-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

Social Studies
social studies is a nono for me
i absolutely hate it
i think its ridiculous and a total waste of time
having said that
im quite relieved after today
both the topics that i studied came out
Merger & Separation as well as Education
i love education questions
they're all similar in so many ways
so yeah, i chose Education
i made a mental note to time myself wisely
yet, inevitably i spent a little bit too much time on SEQs
and the result?
i totally screwed up Q1d.
7 marks.
what the bleh!

after that we were all hungry
so headed to McDonalds for breakfast
bought myself the eggmuffin
*licks lips*
and guess who else was there?
ehehehe

came home and the house was in a mess
on the bright side
no one's at home, except of course my mom
my dad had gotten me putumayam last night
my favourite!
but i could only eat one piece
was still digesting that eggmuffin
decided to come online for a bit
as i had deprived myself of it for 24hrs
so here i am! heh

e maths paper and e. geog tmrw
im kinda worried

oh yeah i just found out yesterday
that someone looks like me
all along people have been telling my
but i just couldn't see it
now i see
and its kinda freaky. haha

ever had the feeling that some things are just too good to be true?

2006-09-09T18:23:00.000+08:00

i feel kinda different
and im not sure whether or not its a good thing

its saturday
im totally screwed lah for prelims
hais. the best i can hope for is 20. i think
havent really done the math.

anyways stayed home today
thought i could have the whole day to study
but of course naturally, something always happens
so my mom was baking the entire morning
my sis's boyfriend ordered a cake from her
she's pretty pumped about getting new customers
i know i should be happy for her
i am.
but my mom has this VERY bad habit.
when she cooks or bakes
she tends to leave rubbish around
so there i was
from 10.30 all the way to 2
in the kitchen
cleaning every damn thing
and where was my sister?
out. buy stuff. tuition. blah blah blah
and to think this is her boyfriend's order
and when she got home
and brought along her boyfriend
she still had the nerve to order me around
)(*$)(#@Q&$@Q^$@!*$*@!$@($7-2!
so pissed lah in the morning
i dont mind helping
but damn it.
my mom was nagging the entire time
my ears were almost bleeding
and everything i did, she's bothered
its like nothing i do is good enough

i clean dishes;
"basuh tu basuh betol-betol. pakai mater kau sikit. jangan buang sembarangan"
[wash properly. use your eyes. dont throw things away]
im cutting up onions and garlic for her;
"kau ni kalau potong, lambat. tu lah tak tau buat kerja kat dapur kan."
[take so long to cut. see lah, never cook before right]
i do laundry;
"kau jangan basuh baju kau saje. ingatkan orang lain"
[dont only wash your stuff. be considerate]

i really wonder why i put up with this
is this how a daughter should be treated?
like seriously?
of course i dont expect royal treatment
but i mean. is this not verbal abuse?
hais. whatever.

i had the worst pms yesterday
it was stupendously horrible
weird thing was the time of the month was already over
i was so mean lah yesterday
im soo soo soo sorry
thanks for being so patient and understanding *hugs* ((:

Correction
haha! ismail! gosh im so sorry i forgot you! =X
of course ismail helped
so with the combined efforts of myself
ismail, khairin, faezah, nazurah and khairil
we made lovely delightful muffins. yeaps.

oh. im currently addicted to
Plus One: Here In My Heart.
i'll post it here if its possible.

2006-09-07T09:16:00.000+08:00

Revision
im starting to panick
why?
because for the past few days
ive only been doing a bit of maths
and doing my geog notes
how in the world am i suppose to do well for my prelims?
i can already predict that im gonna fail physics
im so dead
i NEED to passs!!!
but mr lim already said the paper is hard
i tried the 2005 O level paper
and it was downright undoable for me
how am i suppose to pass it then???
i have got to start revising like mad already

today:
accounts paper 2
social studies sec 4 topics
e maths paper 2
a maths paper 2

Exercise
went jogging yesterday
afterwhich had a game of basketball
then when i got home i ate SO much
i think i just wasted my effort. *hais*
i guess im not meant to be skinny. hahha
but today when i woke up
my entire body ached
my right shoulder is killing me
my legs are aching so much i cant walk properly
aaaah! =/
see how unfit i am?
how am i suppose to survive PE lessons
if ever i were to go JC?

Movies
ive watched American Dreams already! weee!
rented the dvd. its quite nice. very funny
also rented The Good Girl
finally can watch it
i just adore Jennifer Anniston
she's so damn pretty! ahha

i borrowed a few movies from my sister too
kinda wanting to watch 2 more movies

Rumour Has It and...

Elizabethtown

but mom is baking again
then i think her religious students are having lessons today as well
so not an environment for dvd watching
i like to be alone, get myself something nice to eat
dim the lights and watch the movie without interruption
guess i'll have to wait to have my own house then

Correction
okie im really sorry to khairin, faezah, nazurah and khairil
i only made the mffin batter
they baked the muffins
so yeah LOTS of credit to them
i thank them a lot
i know lah im a lousy friend.
so sorry

2006-09-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

English Prelims
well i chose Priorities
im not sure if my story is good or not
i suddenly had this urge to write three short stories
mad right?
three main characters with diff stories
i think the first story was good
but the last two simply suck
and all because i was rushing like mad
quickly ended them. aaaah!
and i have like the worst seat! for me at least
right smack next to the window
facing outside school
to anyone who knows me
its a known fact that i get distracted EASILY.
a bird flew by i'll look out
a dragonfly settled nearby i stopped writing
i hear the mrt train, i stop to look
heck, after every sentence i stopped to look outside
its soo nice lah. and distracting

die.

Long John Silver
well after the papers we decided to go eat
so of course we headed towards the trusty LJS
there was me, khairin, naz, ezah
ismail, suffian and afiq
it was a complete and total blast

khairin didnt even know she was on camera, waaah!

the BOYS

the WOMEN

a lot right? i ate all that. *muahahhaa*
okie kidding.

West Coast Park
i have finally found the place to study
yes people. its West Coast Park
i wonder why some think its far
i really dont think so lei
just take 176 lah
what's so difficult?
anyways yah the McD house is so peaceful
and there's so much green around you
can get inspiration. haha
but mind you. there's lost of birds.
too bad its McDonalds. dont like.
but if it were LJS? i like.

ee chow intro me to study there
what a discovery! hahha thanks!! (:

notice the book says PASS?
yeah so dont expect me to get A1 then
least i can get would be C6. yeah.. haha

can you believe this dude cost $1.70?

i went there again today
did my environmental degredation notes
achieved so much lah!
i am proud of myself. *beams*

2006-09-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

entry will be filled with pics
weee! haha

Fireworks Pictures

well i've kinda updated already on the fireworks
so im just gonna put up pics from that day
some of them at least.

my Piku. 'nuff said *hearts*

i was not, repeat NOT, picking my nose. love my hair though. haha!

aah group hug!

i love that bridge. its really pretty at night! haha

we kinda look like a family dont we? ((:

sahmadi! yes yes i look moronic... moving on!

food food glorious food!

naz looks shocked. i look idiotic. silly ismail. made me laugh. lucky i didnt choke on my food. -.-

okie i have to say i look cute. hehe *bhb moment*

nazurah binte mhd musa!!! hahaha ((:

this is me trying to be funny. laugh people.

err.. no idea what piku was doing.

aah and this is yuan sheng! the hunk of the night. coolest t-shirt ive seen. haha

My Nephews
well turns out that going to my sis's house
to pick up my nephews wasnt so bad after all
havent seen irwin and ilhan since their bangkok trip
irwin getting very talkative nowadays
hahas
the first thing he did when he saw me
was drag me to the dvd cabinet and asked me to play
Spongebob Squarepants the Movie for him
ilhan woke up and started screaming with joy when he saw us
haha
this is why i absolutely adore them ((:

im really not kidding when i said he looks like josh hartnett

irwin botak already. aiyoh he look so 'abang abang' nowadays
hahhas he feels kinda 'grown up' not having hair

this is them in the train
i dont know why
but my nepehws have a fetish for trains. hmmm..

my white punk. hehhe adorable right?
aaaah! so cute (:

2006-09-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

Teacher's Day

well i made more then 20 muffins i think
gave my sisters a total of 15 for their teachers
helped out khairin with her presents
only managed to give muffins to miss ng and cigu zelda
felt kinda bad for the others
but the teachers were simply being bombarded by students
so instead i gave the muffins out to my friends
they were NICE by the way
hahaha

so came home i was pretty tired
spent the next few hours watching Singapore Idol
im happy that Joakim's out
i suspect that he's over the moon
the one day he improved, he received the boot
but like he said
at least now, he's had his dignified exit
im just glad my hady is still there. hehee

so after that i went into my room intending to just fall asleep
suddenly my brother told me to go clean the kitchen
which happens to be super messy
it looked like a bomb exploded.
so i thought i'd just get on with it
at least i wont have to do it in the morning
which would mean i'd have the whole of the next day
totally concentrating on revision.
so i did
took me a while
but it was pretty rewarding to see how squeaky clean it was
after i was done cleaning, haha

woke up and my mom was baking again
so of course all my hard work from the night before went unnoticed
kitchen's a mess again
she was nagging and in a bad mood
apparently kak bella made her angry again
so of course she vent her anger on all of us
but i think i got the bulk of it
only because my other sisters wont even pay attention to her
so yeah... spoiled my morning, definitely.
mom told me to help her do some typing for her religious class later on
then kak kim called to ask me to go her house
and get my nephews ready because dadddy wanna bring them out
so much for revision huh?

ee chow says im being bullied
i think so too
naz thinks it because im waay too nice for my own good
sheesh.

2006-08-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

i need more pics!
so many pics to see
so little time to upload. aaaah!
gonna do some baking tmrw
cant wait! hhehehe (((:

2006-08-27T08:26:00.000+08:00

Sunday Morning

i woke up this morning with knots in my stomach
and suddenly i remembered
so then i took a few more mins to lie in bed
recalling yesterday and smiling to myself;
i watched the break up

well the movie was nice
jennifer and vince have amazing chemistry on-screen
i heard they're getting married
take that Brad-stupid-Pitt! hah!

spent the whole of yesterday morning cleaning my entire room
so you can imagine how disgustingly messy it was
im not saying its not my fault at all
i can be a slob sometimes
sometimes only!
but the bulk of it goes to my lil sister
and you know what i can't stand?
how pampered she is
i mean okie fine
i can accept that she's the smallest
and so favouritism will happen
but does my mom have to be so blatant about it?
i mean i took the whole of my morning
working my butt off
just so that my room would be nice to look at
i even changed my bedsheets lah!
ive never done that before. haha its always my mom
but before that i had to iron them
my bed happens to be queen size so yeah
it was a whole lot of trouble ironing
i took half an hour!
it was sooo difficult lah!
i have no idea how my mom can do it in 5 mins
so anyways!
i came home ystd night
and my room was a pig sty again
all my teddy bears weren't in place
the pillows were all over the bed
my study table was filled with junk
and my sister dumped her uniform, smelly socks
and wallet under the bed
i asked her what the heck are those doing under the bed
and you know what happened?
my mom scolded me instead
'never mind lah! that place under the bed, let it be her secret hiding place for her.'
this is coming from the same person
who nagged me 24/7 to always keep the area under my bed dust-free

ah well
i would have been pissed off had i not been so happy ystd
its good to be happy
i feel.. lighter somehow. haha
its been a long time since i felt this way

oh yeah finally found the pics that were taken during a family gathering
i have an uncle who's a photographer
he's amazing!
i can never achieve the same results with a digi-cam

my true hunks

irwin, my macho hero

ilhan, my pretty josh hartnett look-alike

ilhan, my babydoll (:

he'll always be my favourite cousin ((:
love you Faris!

i honest to goodness cannot get enough of them

my siblings! dont know where nawwarah went to
think she was sleeping

sometimes i feel so thankful that i have such a big family
you wont feel lonely at times
and that's why im grateful of my life
(:

2006-08-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

Thank God Its Friday!

okie school was practically boring
i was pretty bored
mainly because we had soo many maths lessons
im not saying i dont like mrs heng
nor am i saying i hate the subject
i dont hate it, its just not my favourite
so yeah i was pretty stoned the whole day

ups and downs of being a girl is definitely pms
i cant say that i had it before
but now i can
so weird lah! was happily talking
next thing i knew i was feeling miserable
and i was wondering why
PMS is so not fun. hais

the highlight of today
and the reason why im feeling so happy
is our P.E remedial
hhaas
we had to finish off the quater finals
in the end the finals was between my team, Dingbats
and Sarah's team, Iron Ladies
we had to go against Team Sexy first
that was very fun. haha
and i scored a few shots lah! hehe
so guess what. we got first! hehehe
i was soo proud of my team! haha
the boys were great
we had the best jumpers and interceptors
Eng Sen, Gordon and Yuan Sheng
so yes, as Team Manager
i can proudly say that we're the best
heh

after we started off to the mrt
had a nice little meeting on the way
hahaha

i am one very happy girl.

2006-08-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

Errr...

oh wow
miss tan gave me and A2 for my narrative
an A2!
and to think i was expecting a C5
haha!
pleasent surprise. hehe (:

so had two mock papers after school
we ended at 6.10
i've been writing from 2.40 all the way to 6.10 non stop
so after handing in my accounts paper
my right arm just felt numb
decided to eat at long john with my girlfriends
it was sooo much fun laughing with them
we were like a bunch of silly girls
giggling away
really took my mind off things

hady sang beautifully today
i swear if he goes out tomorrow and joakim stays
im boycotting the show
the worst that could happen?
i'll go to a roadshow and SHOOT all those mindless girls
who think this is Singapore Cutie Idol
idiots.

i seriously dont know what to do
im utterly confused
my mind wanders off to places i dont want it to
its distracting
and its scary
but at the same time
i cant help but have knots in my stomach
oh god what is wrong with me??

pretty icons! (:

2006-08-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

symptoms of boredom

was feeling a bit crappy today
so i went back to what i usually do
when im feeling this way; read quotes
read more than a hundred
i dont know why it helps
because the more i read
the more it emphasises the fact that i dont have it
but i just feel 'lifted' somehow
haha

then i took time to just look at icons
and they're soo pretty! (:

2006-08-20T08:54:00.000+08:00

Dreams
dreams are weird
but what i love about it is that i can control them
hhahas
i read the reader's digest about understanding your dreams
so after a confusing night yesterday
i guess i was bound to dream weird dreams
and each one with different perspectives
my dreams were very surprising
showed me what would have been and also what might be
exciting right? haha
that's why i love my dreams
the only downside is when i wake up,
it leaves me wondering even more
and i dont think that's a good thing

i had multiple dreams because of the baby
oh gosh i have never heard a baby cry like that
and usually i dont mind
because i certainly love babies
but this is the very first time i hear irfan cry like that
wait, i shouldn't say cry
he practically screamed his lungs out
i dont know what triggered it
bibik [the maid] is equally confused
he woke me and bibik up with his screamings at 4
didnt want me to hold him
all he wanted was for bibik to carry him
but when she did, he still kept screaming
so bibik just told me to fall back to sleep
and i happily did.....only to wake up again at 5
this time his screamings were a lot worse and very very loud
woke the entire family up
he went on and on till 7.30
so i still managed to get some shut eye

*phew* my sister is coming back today
from bangkok. i told her to buy me clothes
wonder what she'll get

i wonder why he thinks im changed
hais. i wasnt even forcing him lah
because i for one know that
forcing someone to do something he/she doesn't want
will only give you a lose-lose situation
i mean i have nothing against him performing with the rest what?
so what's the problem?
of course im disappointed as anything
who wouldn't be right?
wonder what made him think i was giving him attitude
boys *rolls eyes*

im thinking of going on a hiatus
but that would mean me losing my comfort zone
i wont have a place to write anymore
i dont know.. i'll ponder on it somemore

oh. and good morning people! (:

2006-08-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

watched high school musical again today
*sigh*
i wish i had an opportunity